I shoved his joggers and boxers down before lifting him onto the counter. “I’m not about to disagree with that logic, but I am going to put a pillow on the front seat, just in case.”
“I can’t decide if that’s sweet or a threat because of what you’re about to do to my arse.”
“It’s definitely both,” I said. A tap on his ankles hadhim putting his heels on the countertop, spreading him open to me. I almost drooled at the sight of him. “I mean, I can try and be gentle…”
“No,” Ryan said hoarsely. “I don’t want gentle. I can take it.”
A flare of jealousy rose before I remembered the night when he’d clearly been fucking himself with a dildo.
I pulled out the condom and lube I’d stashed in my back pocket earlier. “If you say so.”
“I do say so.” Ryan tipped his chin up arrogantly.Fuck.I bit my knuckles to contain my whimper, making Ryan frown. “What?”
“You’re just so hot,” I said bluntly. “It’s fucking insane, Shadow.”
It wasn’t only his ears that flushed this time; the colour spread along his cheekbones and down his neck. “You’re the hot one. I’m punching.”
“Patently untrue.” I lubed up my fingers. If we had longer, I’d be working him open with my tongue, but that’d have to wait until next time.
There would be a next time.
I wouldn’t accept the alternative.
Ryan’s argument dissolved on his tongue as I started to prep him. My mouth wasn’t idle, kissing every part of skin I could reach. That we were both still mostly dressed was driving me crazy in the best possible way.
“Get inside me,” Ryan panted after a few minutes.
I crooked my fingers against his gland, making him hiss. “I am inside you, Shadow.”
He glared at me from where he was propped up on his elbows. “You know damn well that’s not what I meant.”
“Relax.” I chuckled, quickly donning a condom and lubing up my cock. “I can’t wait any more than you can.”
Ryan exhaled slowly as I pushed inside him. As hiswarm heat embraced me, I took my time. Not just for him, but for me. This was something I’d dreamed about for so long. If this was going to be the last time…
No. Don’t even think it. This won’t be the last time. It can’t be.
I pushed back the fear, concentrating on steadily sinking into Ryan. He was here. He was with me.
That was all I needed.
As his head fell back on a moan, I marvelled at how different this was from our first time; the only other time I’d been inside him. How different we were. How different everything was.
Well, one thing hadn’t changed. This man owned every inch of me. I existed to love him, and only him.
That was all that mattered.
We both groaned as I bottomed out. I stayed there for a breath, reminding myself of the feel of him. The sense of perfect completeness that I’d failed to find with anyone else. That I didn’twantto find with another. Why would I, when I had Ryan?
“Up,” I said gruffly, reaching for him. “Want you all around me.”
Need flashed over Ry’s face as he did as I asked. His arms went around my neck, legs tightening around my waist.
“Perfection,” I whispered, my eyes drifting shut. “This is perfection.”
“It’ll be perfect when you start moving,” Ryan croaked. “I might spontaneously combust if you don’t.”
I didn’t believe him. He knew how right this was too. But if he wanted to pretend that all we had was heat and desperation, that was what I’d give him.