My nerves are trying to take over at this point, but I try my best to not let fear get to me.
It’s a weird feeling to feel both safe and scared at the same time.
There is a hope inside of me that I haven’t felt in a long time.
When I finish using the washroom, I quickly wash my face and change into Silas’ shirt. I look at myself in the mirror for the first time in a long time.
There is a lightness to me that I have never seen before. The weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I feel as if I’m not carrying the weight of the world anymore.
There is a small smile on my face. I won’t say everything had changed, but I can already see the difference that a night of not being alone had made.
When I get back into the bedroom, Silas has the lights dimmed low and there is an assortment of snacks and drinks on the bed. A TV appeared at the end of the bed. I am in awe. I have always wanted a TV that appears out of nowhere.
“Wow,” I whisper while walking closer.
Silas is smiling and, when he turns to look at me, his smile drops and he swallows hard.
“Is it okay if I borrowed a shirt?” I ask nervously.
“Of course it’s okay, baby. You look good in my shirt,” he says as his voice cracks.
Now I get what that look was for. I’m obviously not the brightest when it comes to men. I usually can’t tell if someone is interested in me. It will be interesting trying to pick up on things I hadnever had time to think about before. From what I can tell, he’s turned on by me wearing his shirt.
It feels better knowing that he knows my past and won’t expect me to have sex right away, but it also feels good that he is attracted to me. Being his bride is what I want.
I just have to take this all one step at a time.
“I wasn’t sure what you liked, so I grabbed what I thought might be good. I hope you don’t have any allergies,” he says, gesturing to all the food on the bed.
“I’m not allergic to anything., but I probably won’t be able to eat all this,” I tell him.
“We don’t have to eat everything. I just want to relax and spend some time with my bride,” he says.
His words are sweet and make me want to tear up a little bit.
I sit down on the bed, and we pick a comedy to watch. The evening is everything I never knew I had wanted.
After we snacked, I cuddled into Silas’ arms. It didn’t take long to fall asleep after that.
We didn’t talk much, but I think Silas knew I needed the relaxation after having to explain to him about my past. I think he also needed the time to process everything. I’m sure that it was a lot to take in.
Tomorrow, I plan to ask more about his brothers, Hell, and his father. Who wouldn’t be curious? I need to know what this family is about and capable of. I also would like to know more about this bond and how it will affect me.
So many questions.
Silas
I barely slept at all last night.
I kept thinking about everything Serenity had told me. I tried hard to hide the anger I felt on her behalf.
When she falls asleep for the night, I wrap the blanket around her before leaving the room. I hate to leave her, but I need to see my father.
He’s sitting in the main common room like he doesn’t have a care in the world.
He gets up, pours me a glass of what he’s having, and hands it to me as I sit down. My body feels weighted down by my emotions.
“She told you,” he states.