"Fuck like a month ago. Nobody knows!" Carrie states and flies from the chair and starts searching the bus for signs of our monster.
"Carrie, Stop!" Chad yells and punches the door. I take a step back totally shocked because he is pretty even killed with this shit.
"Harvey bought the fucking onesie!" I… am confused. No other word for it.
"Wait- what?" I ask as Carrie storms down the hall.
"I told him. It was in a rare moment of stupidity. I was so excited and he called like ten minutes after we found out. He sent it yesterday knowing we were in Cali and asked Tay to messenger it over." He looks at Carrie like I have never seen before, he's hurt and upset. "It was a fuckin' gift!"
I have only ever seen Chad in a state of rage like this one other time. Carrie broke up with him and he blamed me in a roundabout way. "Dude, did she know that shit?" I ask my voice just as pissed as his.
He looks at me with a righteous anger. "No she didn't. Had she asked me or told me what she thought I could have kept all this from happening. But, no right babe? No she needed bubba to swoop in and save her as her perpetual knight in shining fuckin' armor!" He comes at me and I stand firm daring him to touch me. I'll fuckin drop him…
"You knew going into this that she would have moments that I would have to pull her out Chad. Can't fuckin' cry now!"
"We are having a fuckin' baby Noah! One of the few moments that are so God Damned special that I had to share. Everything in our world is a secret and privacy saves lives. As her husband she should have ran to me not from me…" He doesn’t sound angry anymore, he's hurt. Though I get it, I totally do, the big fuckin' baby needed to get a grip and remember that yes, normal every day wives would. Carrie and I, our bond…so not the typical.
"Why didn't you tell him?" I ask Carrie, offhandedly looking to Bright to make sure she's okay. She isn't there and as if Chad knows I am about to freak he reassures me.
"She's with Noelle."
I nod and look back to Carrie for answers. "See how easy that was to avoid some useless senseless fear and drama? It's called open honesty babe, try it." He says and leaves, storming out of the bus without a second glance back.
I watch as my sister falls to the floor in grief. "I knew I would lose him one day because of this."
I scrub my hands over my face, pissed off at the world and all its injustices essentially for destroying us both. "I get it, I do. I get why he is tripping the fuck out sissy. Why not tell him Carrie? Why not tell him what your fear is? I know, I get it. You can't stand the idea of tainting them?"
She nods and more tears fall and I can't help but hold her. "Him included. I'm so scared he will give up on me bubba."
"Never gonna happen babe." Chad says from the living area and I didn't know he was back. I look up as he walks in the room and takes my crying sister in to his arms. "I'm sorry Noah." He says and soothes her.
"Sometimes I forget how it must be on her… and only think of what it's like for me." Hearing shame in his voice makes me want to hug him, but I won't because I'm just not that guy.
"I get it. I can only imagine what this is like outside looking in, but I know you love her more than you love yourself."
"It's impossible loving you both at times, but I do bro."
I get that to.
I step beside him and drop a kiss to Carrie's head and tell her I expect a call about this baby tomorrow, and clasp Chad's shoulder and squeeze once.
That was enough too. That said what I needed it to.
Efficient and shit.