Projecting all my anger
I can't seem to get this through to you
The walls are closing in
I dare you to walk in my shoes
Five Finger Death Punch~ Hard to see
Chapter Five
Bright
I am humiliated right now, and it is worsened by the fact they are all looking at me. Good thing my anger over rode my embarrassment and I didn’t give a fuck if they watched. I hiked my happy ass through that house until I saw the red glow of a cigarette through the French doors in the kitchen. “Bingo mother fucker.”
I storm out the back door and charge him until we are toe to toe. “Who in the fuck do you think you are to dismiss me like I am some cheap whore you just fucked?” I cringe inwardly as I hear Tayla call the two small children into the living room. I try to suppress the guilt at them hearing such language with the fact they are kids of rock stars and I am sure they’ve heard worse.
He looks at me with the same intensity. “I am tryingnotto dismiss you like a whore actually.”
“I was hired to do a job and because you find me attractive you can't handle it? Get a grip dude. Bad ass bassist with an edge,canthandle being around a cute girl. Boo hoo dude.”
“Enough!” This is Carrie and now all of the people I have yet to meet are all watching with rapt attention. “What the fuck Bubba?”
She looks to Noah for answers.
“Carrie just go inside and let me handle this.” He dismisses her like nothing and pulls a drag from his cigarette. I snatch it from his fingers and take a deep drag off the Camel, exhaling in relief. I glare at him as I hand it back to him, and his stunned expression.
“Handle what? Firing me? You did that already.”
I am not willing to stand here and look like some impulsive bitch to complete strangers. I have never in my life been more offended than I am now.
“I came here to help. For whatever reasons it was important to me do not matter because youallhave offended me." I turn my glare on Tayla and Carrie. "You dig into my past without the right or my permission, and stand idle as a record label strips his rights. I look to Noah again. "You accuse me of being a stalker and to top it all off you fire me because you can’t stand wanting to fuck me!” I scream the last part in his face, steal his smoke and walk away for good.
I get in my rental car and connect my phone to Bluetooth and race out of there while I wait for Raleigh to answer. He does on the second ring.
“How did it go?” He asks and I know he is closing The Brew because I can hear the cappuccino machine in the background self-washing.
“I need your help Raleigh.” My voice cracks and I hate that they affected me enough to cause tears.
“Whoa, baby girl take a deep breath and tell me what happened.” I went over the entire night's episode with him in all its glorified detail.
“Damn Bright.” Was all he could say and then I hear his lighter and I know he is taking the trash out and having a smoke before he starts to count down the register. “Want me to burn all their CD’s in your honor?”
I laugh. “No, I just can't stand rich people.”
He laughs. “First off I am glad I don’t need to go all political and burn their music because I do love it. Second, baby it sounds like he was maybe wanting to be the good guy… in a real shitty way of course.” He added the last part quickly as if to reassure me he was still on my team.
“I know he was but he humiliated me in the process.” I shake my head and press on the gas pedal when the light turns green. “Can you help me get a flight that leaves sooner than tomorrow night please?”
“Of course.” He sends me off with a few more comforting words of friendship before ending the call so he could finish closing up shop and help me get back home.
By the time I made it to my hotel I was exhausted and wanted a long hot bath. I poured myself a tall glass of Stella Artois and made my way to the bathroom. A text from Raleigh comes through with my new travel itinerary and I am relieved to know I am gonna be back home by lunchtime tomorrow.
And just like that I am annoyed all over again. “Fucking rich people.” I say to myself, a reminder of everything I will never be again.
Noah
“What the fuck just happened?” Carrie asks me and I look at her with an obvious glare.