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He chuckled. “You were obviously distracted.”

“Do you play?”

Stefan shook his head. “It belonged to the previous owner. I got the feeling it was an unpleasant reminder of something, because he didn’t want to take it with him.” He smiled. “Maybe you could play something. That wasn’t a request, by the way.”

I watched him as he poured the dark liquid into them, and the noise in my head started to quiet down. By the time he joined me on the couch, I felt more like myself again. He handed me a glass, then leaned back.

We drank in silence for a moment, the rum warming me.

I set the glass down on his coffee table. “I think I might have overthought this.”

Stefan seemed to be holding back his smile. “I hadn’t noticed.”

I shot him a look. “I’m serious.”

“So am I.”

I took a calming breath. “I don’t want to rush into anything.”

“Good.”

That word again, but this time it felt… right.

I twisted in my seat, gazing at him. “And I don’t want to misread anything either.”

“You’re not.” His tone spoke of calm assurance.

My nerves hadn’t gone, but now I felt less overwhelmed.

More focused.

I expelled a long breath before speaking. “Can I be honest?”

“Of course.”

I hesitated for a fraction of a second. “I think what I actually want is another kiss.”

Stefan regarded me steadily, and heat rose at the back of my neck.

I’ve said it now. No taking it back.

“I’ve only had one,” I added, as if that helped somehow. “From a man, I mean.”

Stefan’s mouth twitched. “Yes, I think you mentioned that part.”

“Right.” I cleared my throat. “So it would be irresponsible not to… confirm the data.”

A beat of silence, and then Stefan let out a quiet breath, something very close to a laugh.

“Of course,” he said, his expression grave. “For research purposes.”

“Exactly.” I paused. “I just want to be sure.”

Stefan held my gaze, and I knew what he saw wasn’t my attempt at humour, but what lay beneath it.

“I know.”

There was no teasing now.