I rolled my hips again, leaning in closer. Brushing my lips across his.
“Declan Rowe, do I have your consent to make love to you?”
He barked out a laugh and then scrubbed his hand over his face, then he looked at me with a boyish grin, “Yes baby, you have my consent.”
That was it, I titled my hips and slowly slid down on his throbbing cock. He was so hard, filling me up… he felt like he was everywhere. The grunt that came out of him was pure male, he held himself still while I adjusted to him. It had been almost a year since we had last been together and all of a sudden it was like the weight of the moment hit me all at once. A sob tore out of me, it wasn’t sad necessarily more a combination of relief, joy, love, pain for how long it took us to recover… all of it just came pouring out of me.
Declan tried to roll me off, but I shook my head. Regaining some of my composure, “No… I want to do this. Weneedto do this… Everything you have done, the relationship we have built has been so beautiful… but this. This just feels…”
Declan pulled me closer, kissing me softly through my tears, whispering sweet reassuring words to me… doing everything right. Which just led me to more tears.
“We can stop, we don’t have to…”
“Don’t you dare… you just need to stop being so sweet and fuck me.” I was half crying and half laughing and anyone else would have thought I had gone mad. But not Declan. He pumped his hips driving himself deeper in me, a moan burst through my lips.
He repeated the motion and my tears stopped. Grabbing my ass cheeks, he pulled me forward so he was as deep as he could get in this position and started to rock his hips from underneath me until the moment of hysteria was gone and it was replaced with him. I leaned forward rocking with him, moving together and kissing him deeply. Thanking him for knowing that was what I needed, for trusting me when I said this was what I wanted, for understanding how overwhelmed I was with my feelings, but still wanted him, this, us.
My entire body felt lit up, like I was finally coming back to myself. Declan rolled us, keeping his body close to mine, our sweat slicked skin moving together, our breaths mingling between kisses and shared moans. I came screaming his name and fell asleep in the arms of the man I loved.
I woke up to Declan kissing my brow, my eyes and my nose. To him softly asking me to wake up, telling me how happy I made him and how much he loved me.
When my eyes finally opened he gifted me a smile and placed my favourite latte on the bedside table, that is when I noticed he was fully dressed.
“Where are you going?” I murmured.
“Remi called,” He said and I sat up bumping into him, panic kicking in.
Declan pulled me into his arms, “Everything is ok. Don’t panic. She asked me if I would stop by, Ava and Chief Gray are getting engaged and she asked if I would show up to help celebrate.”
I let out the breath I had been holding and when he felt my body relax he let go of me, letting me lay back down. He studied my face for a minute before saying, “I am absolutely the luckiest man. Thank you for trusting me again, for doing the work with me. I love you.”
My heart felt so full, “Thank you for not giving up on me. I love you, Declan.”
“I’ll be gone most of the day, I want you to think about something when I am gone.”
I sat up, leaning against the headboard reaching for the latte, I nodded unsure of what he was asking.
“Can you think about where you see us, how you envision our lives. This place is just a rental, but if you wanted to stay here we could find a place… we could do whatever you wanted. I just know I want my life to be with you, I want everything with you.”
“I can’t go back,” I whispered, feeling that vulnerability creep back in.
Declan gave me a soft smile saying, “I know baby and I wouldn’t ask you to. Just think about what youdowant.”
“OK, I can do that.”
“Will you be here when I get back?” He asked.
“I don’t know. I should probably head home soon, Marv will be freaking out… I kind of just took off yesterday.”That reminded me…“Did you pay off his mortgages?”
Declan gave me a kiss standing up from the bed, “It was the only way I could think of to repay him for keeping you safe.”
I smiled at him nodding, feeling like that was such a Declan thing to do and then he was gone, promising he would be back as soon as he could.
I thought I would be able to fall back asleep, but I lay awake thinking about what he had asked me. Thinking about what kind of life I wanted with him and then it came to me and I knew exactly what I wanted and what I needed to do next.
CHAPTER 48
DECLAN - FOREVER