We talk about roller derby for a while, and I send her a video of my infamous skating fall.
Alice:
HELMET!!!!!
Me:
LMFAO I know
Alice:
Gonna have a heart attack watching y’all without your helmets.
Me:
Anyway, I’m pretending everything is fine. That’s healthy, right?
Alice:
I mean it’s not, but I also do the same thing. Like constantly.
Me:
Dissociating is the official word.
Alice:
Too bad denial doesn’t have any essential nutrients.
Me:
Lmao. If so, I already have a bulk vitamin pack.
The conversation feels like coming up for air. Alice doesn’t push, doesn’t demand answers or solutions. She’s just there. And in this moment, that’s enough.
The next day, she checks in again.
Alice:
Back to why I reached out.
You said you were in a pinch yesterday. That still the case, and can I help?
Her kindness makes my chest ache, but in a good way.
Me:
Agh, just saw this. Thank you!! I was just in a non-physical argument that didn't make sense, and feeling very isolated all the way out here. You were a massive help just by being here and I appreciate you!!
Alice:
Is he behaving now?
Me:
Yes. There has been no drinking for several days, so it's been nice.
Like I said, we're visiting his parents on Wednesday in Montana for almost a week, so that will be interesting.