“Thanks Liv, you’ve given me a lot to think about,” I say, ending the call.
I stare out my window, watching the leaves flutter as new ideas take root in my mind. Could I really do it—be with Noah, Jayden, Killian and Kai all together? It sounds insane, but maybe it could work. It would definitely require tons of communication and trust, though.
I spend the next hour reading various articles and personal accounts. There are definitely challenges, but with openness and agreed upon boundaries, some make it work smoothly.
Setting aside my phone, my mind now swirls with questions and hypothetical situations. I don’t want to assume anything or make impulsive choices.
For now, I’ll just observe how things unfold naturally with the guys.
No pressure, no expectations, just possibilities.
I shake my head and laugh softly. “Let’s see where this crazy thought experiment goes...”
Despite the unconventional notion, a part of me is undeniably intrigued and hopeful.
Chapter 36
Killian
Themorningsuncastsa soft light across my tidy room. There's something about keeping everything in its place, especially when the rest of my life is feeling a little out of control.
I sit at my desk, coffee mug in hand, staring out the window but not really seeing anything. The apartment is quiet, a calm settling after the chaos of last night.
I think back to the laughter and easy banter from the evening before, and how effortlessly Dylan fit into our little group. Her smile lit up the room as we shared stories and inside jokes. It was different than our usual nights out together.
And then when we got home, most definitely different from our usual nights in as roommates.
More than just fun—it was genuinely enjoyable.
Dylan clicked with us so naturally, it was like she'd always been here. Could there be something more than just… whatever last night was?
I remember how she teased Jayden when he tried showing off during our rugby scrimmage, matching his competitiveness with her own feisty spirit.
The way she made Noah laugh heartily with that ridiculous impression of our coach, the way I hadn't seen him laugh in years.
And when we locked eyes across the living room, sharing a private smile at the guys' antics, some kind of circuit in my mind that had blown long ago seemed to fuse back together, making me feel all was right with the world.
Dylan is unlike anyone we've ever known. She challenges me—challenges us—in new ways. Makes me think about taking risks I've never considered. Exploring something extraordinary.
Because maybe there's a chance we could all care for her, in our own way.
And maybe, if we're brave enough, she could care for each of us, too.
I grab my journal, scribbling down these swirling thoughts and feelings. If we're all on the same page, we need to talk openly and honestly. Figure out if trying for something real with Dylan is a leap worth taking. A relationship like we've never had before, but could build together.
As I close my journal, resolve settles within me. Along with a spark of anticipation.
It's time to find the guys. No more wondering about what if—we need to look our future in the eye. A future that might just include Dylan as our shared love, if we're willing to embrace the unexpected. To ask the right questions rather than just regurgitate all the conventional answers that have been hammered into us relentlessly by our parents, teachers, the media, and whoever else has an opinion on what a relationship should look like.
Because maybe Dylan herself is the best thing we could have ever imagined would enter our lives. She's abundance personified, and if there's someone with enough generosity and kindness and spirit to go around, it would be her.
And maybe, just maybe, we're ready to explore the possibilities she represents. For all of us.
I find Noah in the kitchen, sipping his morning coffee. His broad shoulders are tense, his forehead creased in thought. But when I enter, he glances up with a smile.
"Morning. Sleep okay after last night?" His voice is light, but there's an undercurrent of something else.
I pour my own coffee. "Honestly? I was up thinking."