“It wasn’t you, Keith. You know that, right?”
“I know, it was just devastating to hear you sound so terrified,” he admits.
“Enough of the assault for a minute. Preferably longer than a minute,” I say. “Areyousure?”
“I’ll need to remind myself a few times to not fuck you completely senseless,” he says as he pulls his shirt off. I feel something feral come over me as I watch him undress. “You okay, sweetness?”
“I… fuck, you are a gorgeous man,” I say, scanning his body.
“And you, my dear, are stunning,” he says. When he let his boxers drop to the ground, my mouth falls open.
“Dear God, you weren’t kidding when you said you could probably hurt me,” I say, staring at his massive cock. He is hard and ready to take me. I truly don’t think he will fit, but I’m fucking determined to take him either way.
“I need you to be very specific on what you want me to do,” he says seriously.
“I… I need it to be overwhelming,” I say. “I don’t want to be able to think. I just need to get out of my head for a moment, and I trust you. I know that if I tell you to stop that you will, but I truly want you to fuck me senseless.”
“What are your limits?” he asks as he lays me back and leans down to softly kiss between my breasts.
“I need to be able to see,” I say. “I want you to prevent me from moving but I want you to be the one to hold me. No belts. No rope. Just you holding me down,” I say.
“Don’t force yourself to continue if you start to get triggered. I don’t care if you think that I’m seconds away from coming… if you want me to stop, open your mouth and tell me. Understand?”
“Yes. I understand,” I say and sit up slightly to kiss him. He leans into me to deepen our kiss.
“Did I hear correctly that you are on birth control?”
“Yes,” I say, and he smiles.
“Have you ever had sex without a condom?” he asks.
“No, but I’m really, really fucking hoping that this is leading to you being the one to fill me for the first time,” I say.
“I am,” he says as he kisses down my chest. “But first… remember that when you are with me, you will always be treated with respect. Even if I degrade you, or treat you like my personal little fuck toy… I will always be respectful.”
“You don’thaveto be respectful,” I say with a conniving grin.
“Then in that case…. Shut the fuck up,” he says with a playful smile, and I giggle.
“You want to be my good little whore, don’t you, sweetness? Let’s see just how loud you can scream for me,” he says before pushing my thighs apart.
“Fuck!” I gasp loudly and arch my back as he spreads me wide for him and licks across my clit. He wraps his arms around my thighs, and I immediately cry out when he starts sucking on me. “Oh my God! Keith!” My moans are desperate and needy as my body shakes.
He brings me to the point of screaming, but he won’t let me come. Every time I get close, the feeling disappears at the last second. My pussy is pulsating and each time he makes my muscles clench around nothing, I whimper.
Right as my orgasm it’s about to explode out of me, he pulls away completely and I whine dramatically as he comes up to kiss me again. “Please fuck me, Keith. I will literally do anything you want.”
“You’ll do anything I want either way,” he says with a feigned, but convincing, threat in his tone. He grabs my wrists and pulls them above my head to pin me. I try to pull my arms away to test his hold and he pushes the head of his cock into me. My eyes roll back and I groan as he stretches me.
“If you fight me, I’ll go harder,” he says. This makes me smile right away and I pull against him again. This time, he slams deep into my pussy.
“Fuck,” I scream as pressure radiates from my belly.
“That’s my girl,” he praises as he draws out of me. The way he grunts immediately drags up a memory of one of the men raping me. “Look at me, Bekah. Open your eyes and look at me.”
“I’m sorry,” I say, almost in tears.
“Eyes on me, sweetness,” he says as he slowly pushes into me. “What did it?”