Yet, I can’t seem to calm myself down.
Why do I feel like I’m going to have a heart attack sitting here, just thinking about talking to him about this?
Because I’m afraid.
“Kiki?”
“I’m fine. Thank you both for getting me out of here earlier and for distracting me.”
Allison turns around in her seat so she can see me. “We’re here for you any time you need us, but you need to get your ass in there and talk to your omega.”
“Right. Because he’s most definitely freaking out right now.” I shove the door open. “I’ve got this. Love you both!”
I climb out and start up the stairs to the front door. I know the sooner I get this over with, the better it’ll be, but I can’t seem to help myself from dragging it out.
The fear of the unknown is holding me back.
Being aware of this doesn’t make it any easier to push through.
Squaring my shoulders, I push open the front door and step inside.
“Hello?” I call out, but my only answer is silence.
I have no idea if Alexander, Davis, and Mason are still here. It’s Sunday, but they don’t exactly work traditional Monday through Friday jobs, so they could’ve gone into work. Or they could be in Crew’s nest fucking his brains out.
Okay, that’s not likely to be happening, but it could be.
And Crew’s the only one I’m worried about right now. I need to find him.
Heading up the stairs, I curse myself for not staying to find out where the parental pack was planning on putting us. I’d like to think they’d put us in the same room, but who the hell knows?
I beeline for my room, pausing as I wonder if I should knock before shaking my head. Why the hell would I knock on my own door? I don’t even know if Crew is in here.
Shoving the door open, my eyes immediately go to my bed where Crew has built himself a nest and curled up inside. “Crew?”
“Kiki?” He shoots up, eyes wide as he blinks at me. It takes a moment for his eyes to focus on me, and I realize he must’ve been sleeping. “You’re home.”
“I am. I’m sorry for leaving like that.”
He shuffles over and pats the spot beside him. “Come sit with me?”
How can I say no to that?
I climb into the bed, and he immediately pulls me into his arms.
“You were overwhelmed, Kiki, so I understand why you ran. In the future, can you not run without your omega, though? I feel like I’m a pretty well-balanced omega, but having you leave me behind? It was one of the worst things I’ve ever felt. It felt like you abandoned me.”
“Fuck.” I bury my head in his neck. “I’m so fucking sorry, Crew. And I did abandon you, which is fucked up on so many levels. It doesn’t matter how overwhelmed I was, I never should’ve left you.”
Crew pulls back so he can meet my eyes. “I forgive you, but just know, if you ever do it again, I’m going to throw an omega tantrum like nothing you’ve ever seen before. You’ll be groveling for years.”
A giggle sneaks out at the idea of Crew throwing a tantrum. While tending to be on the emotional side—just like me, which makes for some fun times—he’s never been someone to make a scene. Even when we were kids, I think the only time I saw him have a tantrum was when we were five and his parents said he couldn’t stay over on my birthday since I was having a sleepover. He didn’t understand why it wasn’t okay for him to be the only boy.
I guess I didn’t at the time either. I’m pretty sure I was at his side, also having a tantrum.
“We need to talk,” he says, and I automatically nod—even as my heart starts pounding double-time in my chest.
Those are four words no one ever wants to hear.