I swipe a hand over my tired face and shake my head even though he can’t see me. “Nope. What is it this time?”
“Parties. Drinking. You going off the rails.”
“Is that it?” My jaw flexes.
“That’s not it,” he says carefully, and I know by the edge in his voice that I’m not going to like whatever it is. “There’s also a story about that night. You and your buddy with that girl.”
The phone nearly cracks between my fingers. “So much for the cash deal.”
Well fucking played, Kail.
“The tabloids didn’t leak any names,” Phil says, “but there are vague details. The story is about you waking up with an unidentified male and female at one of your wild parties. There are photos of your house, supposed witness accounts—”
I close my eyes and smash my fist against the steering wheel.How could she fucking do this to me?
“Just read it,” Phillip tells me. “I’m sending you the link.”
I pull up the message and follow the link. Beneath the bold headline that readsTrouble in Landon’s Paradise, there are an array of photos of me taken inside my own house. Photos of me drinking. Shots of me on the sofa surrounded by blurred faces. And then the worst of them. Photos of the guest bedroom. They couldn’t print the images of us in bed, but this is the next best thing, I guess.
I continue to read, and the golf ball in my throat swells to a basketball. The details are too close to home. The drinks we had that night. The game of Truth or Grope. Physical descriptions of my unidentified bed partners. And then I see it. The one piece of information that could only come from Kailani.
Our source tells us she was his tutor over the summer, and that’s how they met…
My cold, dark heart thumps one last time before every emotion I thought I had fades to black. This must be what death feels like. Flat and empty.
“I’m sorry, Landon.” Phillip’s voice drags me back. “I know it’s bad, but it could be worse. I’m worried this is an unspoken threat. Alook what I can do, sort of threat. I’m sure she just wants more money. I’ll talk to her—”
“No,” I reply with more ferocity than I even knew I was capable of. My head dips, and blackness creeps into the edges of my vision as I lower my voice. “Just leave her alone. Let her do whatever she wants. Let her ruin me if that’s what makes her happy.”
Phillip is quiet on the other end of the line. He’s not the type to say he told me so, but from the beginning, he warned me this story would come back to bite me in the ass. He begged me many times to let my lawyer track Kail down again. Have her sign an NDA, threaten to sue her, whatever it took to keep her from going to the media. I told them no because even then, I was still trying to protect her. And for what?
The faces of my classmates’ blur as I look around the parking lot of Black Mountain Academy. They are all vacant and unfamiliar. People I’ve seen a thousand times, but don’t really know. They don’t know me either. Nobody does. And I don’t want to be here anymore. I don’t know if I ever want to come back here again.
“I’m leaving,” I tell Phillip.
“I already sent a car for you,” he assures me. “It’s waiting at your house. There’s security there too, just in case. I had your housekeeper pack you a bag…”
The rest of his instructions fade to background noise, and I disconnect the call as I meet Carson’s gaze outside the window. He’s waiting for me to get out. When he sees the expression on my face, concern washes over his. I shift the car into gear and speed away, leaving him without an explanation. He starts calling me as soon as I round the corner, and I send it straight to voicemail. That doesn’t stop him from texting me, though.
Carson:I need to talk to you. It’s important.
Carson:Landon, come on.
Carson:What the fuck, bro? You’re really just going to leave like that?
Carson:I saw the articles. There’s something you need to know.
I toss the phone out the window, watching it bounce off the pavement as I leave it behind in my rearview mirror. Fuck this town. Fuck high school. Fuck everything.
My foot jams on the throttle, and the speedometer climbs. Seventy. Eighty. Ninety. My vision blurs, and a memory forces its way into my consciousness.The steering wheel vibrates. The engine rumbles. The winding lines on an empty mountain road sway back and forth. Cool air blows in from the window, and I wave my hand through it like I did when I was a kid. This was supposed to be my fresh start. A new life. And then I met Kailani fucking Hale.
I close my eyes and forget to open them again. The tire catches gravel, and the steering wheel jerks to the right. I’m free-falling. Spinning around and around on a Tilt-A-Whirl as metal crunches around me. Shattered glass peppers my face and body as I welcome death. Nobody will miss me here. I look for the light, or whatever the fuck it is that’s supposed to happen. But who am I kidding? Everyone knows I’m going to hell.
The car comes to a stop with a final aching groan. Blood drips down my temple, and my hope for a peaceful exit is destroyed by blinding pain. I reach up to wipe my face off, but my arm dangles like it’s been split in two. When I look at it, I realize it’s bad. It looks as though it’s been put through a meat grinder.
Fucking hell. Why couldn’t I have just died?
A car horn blares, jarring me back to the present. Sweat beads on my forehead, and I realize I’m at a stoplight. I don’t even know how I got here. Everything feels distorted, and for a second, I think maybe this morning was all a dream. But it’s never a dream. This is the only reality I know.