Chapter Seven
Wren
FOR THE LAST week Ihave been going out of my mind.There’s nothing to do in the hospital and you can’t really rest because nurses are always coming in and out of the room to check your vitals, give medicine, and whatever else they have to do during their shift.The only reason I didn’t completely lose my mind is because Zach and Tristan were here every single day for a while to keep me company.They started coming at opposite times so one of them was always at the clubhouse to do whatever they do there.I’m not sure and I didn’t ask because I don’t really want to know anything about the club Judge is the President of.Both of them do know I’m pregnant and they know Judge is the dad but they promised they wouldn’t say anything to him or anyone else.I had no choice but to tell them because I started getting sick while they were here and it worried them.Both of them are supposed to be loyal to the club and members, but I have no reason to believe they’re not loyal to me as well.
Mrs.Smythe also came to visit me.Tristan and Zach are still in contact with her and help her on a regular basis.They told her I was still in town and had been admitted to the hospital after an accident.She came a few times and always brought me baked goods.I’ve missed her food so damn much over the last five years.We talked and laughed as we shared memories of the time I spent in her house.I’m so glad I got to see her again.I also promised to start visiting her.She’s missed me and has been wondering how I’m doing.Yeah, I lied to her and tried to reassure her that I’m doing okay and there’s nothing wrong in my world.I don’t know if she believes me, but I’ll do whatever it takes for her to stop worrying about me.
Judge has been here every single day, but I won’t allow him to enter my room.I don’t have anything to say to him and the risk of him learning about the baby is too high.Eventually I plan on telling him, but it won’t be now.I need to have some kind of plan in place for myself before I have that conversation with him.I’m not about to let Judge try to force me into giving the baby up or hearing how he’s going to take my son or daughter from me because of the circumstances I’m currently in.So, he remains out in the hall doing whatever it is he does while Fury visits me.He’s probably fucked all the nurses in the damn place already since he has so much time on his hands.
Demolition and Vulture have been up every day to see me as well.They share stories about Razer and I’ve really gotten to know the kind of man he was through them.Millie, Razer’s girlfriend, has also been up to see me.She wanted to personally thank me for trying to save the man she’s loved for so many years.
Fury’s sitting next to me when a light knock sounds on the door.The nurses don’t pound, but their knock is definitely louder than what I’m hearing right now.Fury jumps out of his seat next to me and walks over to the door.
“Millie, I’m glad you decided to come up and meet Wren,” I hear him greet the person he’s blocking from my view.
“Is she up for a visitor?”I hear a woman ask, her voice breaking and I wonder if this is Razer’s girl.
“She is.”
Fury moves out of the way and I see the woman I believe is Millie standing in front of him.She’s almost as small as I am.Millie has long black hair and the biggest blue eyes I’ve ever seen.Tears are rolling down her face as she looks at me.She’s wearing a long, black dress and I can see the tear-stains on her face.Her eyes are red and swollen as well.Millie looks so sweet and innocent, my heart shatters for her loss and the pain she’s currently in.This isn’t a woman who was using a man because he was a biker.She’s a woman who was truly in love with the man she just lost.He owned her heart and soul, it’s written all over her face in the pure devastation filling her eyes.
“Wren, this is Razer’s girl, Millie.Millie, this is Wren,” Fury introduces us as he leads the young woman into my room and next to my bed.
“It’s nice to meet you, Millie.I’m so sorry I couldn’t do more to save Razer.I would have given my life for his just so all of you wouldn’t have to go through this pain,” I tell her honestly because it’s something I’ve been thinking about since I’ve had so much free time to lay here doing nothing.
Razer has a family who loves him.Not just his dad, uncle, and brother.He’s got a girl and twins who will now have to grow up without their dad.The men in the club love him and always looked to him when Fury and Judge weren’t around from what I’ve been told.He was a kind, loving, and patient man who was always there for anyone in need.Razer worked hard not only with the business he ran for the club but with any of the other businesses that needed help for whatever reason.He was always working and looking up things for them on his computer.I’m the exact opposite of him in some ways.I couldn’t seem to keep a job to save my life, I’m homeless, and I don’t have anyone who would give a shit if I were dead.Yeah, I’m pregnant now and I want to live for my child, but I didn’t know that when I tried to save Razer.I would have traded my life in a heartbeat for his.
“Please don’t say that.You did what you could to save him and I’ll always appreciate that more than you’ll ever know or understand.Razer wouldn’t have wanted you to say that either.He was always ready to give up everything he loves in order to protect someone else.I’ve seen it so many times over the years,” Millie says, reaching out and taking my hand in hers as I start to cry along with her.
“It’s the truth though.He had such a wonderful life and family.People loved him and care if he’s here or not.He’s got two children who will only remember him through memories and the stories you all share.I’m all alone in the world.I don’t have a family of my own and no one would honestly care if I weren’t here any longer,” I tell her with a broken voice because the tears start falling harder as I realize how truly pathetic I am.
“That’s a lie, Wren.Tristan and Zach have been missin’ you for five years.They finally got you back in their lives and will definitely care if somethin’ happens to you.You’re their sister even though you’re not blood,” Fury states as Millie looks at me in shock.
“You know two of the club’s Prospects?”she asks me as I nod my head.
“Yeah.I was in foster care with them in my last house before I aged out of the system.They were the brothers I never had and I hated leaving them behind.It’s the only reason I cried the day I drove away from them.If something had happened to me that day, they never would have known because we hadn’t seen one another again,” I say, defending my words because it’s how I’ve felt for the last several days.
Millie stayed with us for a few hours while the kids were in school.They know about their dad and are extremely sad, missing him every single day.Instead of staying home, crying all day while missing him even more because they’re surrounded by memories of him and his belongings, they went to school.The teachers all know what’s going on and that Millie is prepared to pick them up at any time if they need to leave.It gives her time each day to mourn her man and cry so she can be strong for her children when they get home.I really enjoyed getting to know her and hearing more about Razer from her.Before she left, Millie made me promise that I would do everything in my power to live my life to the fullest in honor of Razer.It’s a promise I can’t break because it means so much to her and Fury.
“Are you ready to head home today,” Annie, my favorite nurse, asks as she walks in my room.
“I’m so ready to get out of here.I feel like I’ve been here for a year already and it’s only been a week.Thank you for taking care of me, Annie,” I tell her as she gives me a smile and hands me the bag of clothing Tristan brought over to me.
I didn’t want him to see all the crap in my car so he brought me stuff Zach and him have.It’s all going to be huge on me, but that’s what I really want right now.Especially my back.There are times the clothing gets stuck in one of the cuts and it hurts when it breaks free.Tristan and Zach have been putting some kind of cream on my back every day that’s supposed to help with the pain and muscle spasms I’ve been having.Dr.Tucker told me it might happen because of the injuries I sustained.They aren’t fun and have been so bad I get woken up in the middle of the night from them.I can’t even tell if the cream is helping, but they apply it twice a day like they were told to.
“Get dressed and I’ll bring your discharge papers in for you to sign after I go over them with you.Do you have someone to drive you home?”she asks me, removing the IV from my arm.
“Yeah.One of my brothers will be here to pick me up,” I answer her as she makes sure the tape is securely holding the gauze in place.
Annie leaves me alone again and I open the bag to pull out the clothes.Tristan gave me one of his old football hoodies.I know it’s his because it’s got his name and number on it.There’s a tee-shirt I used to see him wear all the time as well.It’s one of those shirts with a sarcastic saying on it.The sweatpants belong to Zach.He’s a little smaller than Tristan so they’ll fit me better.Thankfully, I still have my sandals here so I don’t have to worry about what I’ll wear on my feet.I carefully remove the hospital gown before starting to put on the clothes.Tristan’s shirt is like a damn dress on me.It falls to the middle of my thigh.I pull on Zach’s sweatpants and tie them before rolling down the top a few times so they remain in place.Finally, I put on the hoodie.If I thought Tristan’s shirt was huge on me, it’s nothing compared to his hoodie.He’s always worn them bigger than necessary.I look like a damn fool, but I’m dressed in warm clothes so that’s a plus.