And I’ve avoided him like the plague since.
I almost jumped on that man, but I knew if I did it could be setting myself up to be hurt by him. I just can’t do that again. I may not be sad about my breakup with Aaron, but I probably should be…right?
I learned it was harder to sneak back into my house when Jerry Lee is living with us. I didn’t want to crawl through my window again when Parker dropped me off. Of course, walking through the front door had Jerry Lee announcing my arrival.
“Hi bitch! Jizz!”
“Shut up,” I whisper yell.
“Lily?” Ethan’s groggy voice calls from down the hall.
“Go back to bed, it’s just me,” I tell him softly.
He rubs his eyes and then looks at me questioningly. “Did you go somewhere?”
“Maybe, don’t worry about it, go back to bed.”
“I heard Parker’s truck.”
Damn him and his old truck that I love so much.
“Huh? Who’s that?”Nice, Lily.
“Hunky Parker!”
“Jerry Lee, seriously, you’re the worst thing to happen to me.”
“I like Parker way more than Aaron,” Ethan adds unhelpfully.
“I know you do. He’s your friend.”
“He used to be your friend too.”
“He did.”
“What happened?”
“Uh, go back to bed. You’re dreaming, goodnight.”
He huffs, turning to go back to his room, and I scurry to mine. As soon as I’m inside, shutting the door I lean back against it, and remember exactly what happened and why I can’t let Parker in again.
I thought I’d enjoy being away from Amity. That coming tocollege in a big city would turn me into some main character in a sitcom or something. But it’s only been a month, and I feel like I’m drowning in homework, I’ve almost been hit by at least three cars, and I have no friends. I mean, my roommate and I are cool, but I wouldn’t consider usfriends.
I miss home.
I miss Parker.
I thought the distance would be good for us; we still text, but it feels different. We agreed that we aren’t technically together, but it didn’t feel like a real breakup. I know he’s not happy I left, he understands and would never try to hold me back, but he had a different vision for his future.Ourfuture.
Maybe I was wrong, and I should’ve stayed.
It’s fall break, and I wasn’t originally planning to come home until Thanksgiving, but I can’t wait anymore. I choose not to tell anyone, and surprise both my family and Parker with my arrival.
One long ass drive later, I’m back in Amity. The familiar sights bring me so much comfort I don’t even know if I’ll go back to school. This is my home; this is who I am.
My family is so happy to see me when I get home, we have dinner, and then I’m going to sneak over to Parker’s house to surprise him. I can’t wait to be back in his arms, to feel the familiar comfort of being in his strong embrace. To fall into bed with him and not sleep.
In fact, maybe we’ll never sleep again. Just stay lost in each other forever.