“I wouldn’t know.”
Of course he didn’t, because when it came to the heart, he was freaking clueless.“So why is this pair bonding such a big secret?I’ve been alive as long as you.I’ve been around plenty of angels, and none of them have ever made me think they were a couple.I’ve sure as hell never seen any of them make out or be affectionate.”
His gaze slid to mine, then lowered.“Because that kind of affection isn’t encouraged.We engage in sexual relations for procreation only.”
“Sexual relations?”I snorted, then froze when his expression didn’t change.“So, what?You fuck to get your mate knocked up, then don’t touch each other again until you want to have another kid?”I huffed a laugh.
Dark pink slashed his cheekbones.“Yes, that’s what I’m telling you.”
Fucking angels.“And you were willing to live like that?You wanted that?A sexless, loveless mating?”I asked in disbelief.
His jaw ticced.“I thought I did, yes.”
“You say that as if you’d changed your mind.”
“I had, or at least I thought I had.”
“You don’t sound so sure?What about now?Would you still want that kind of mating now, if you could have it?”I asked, needing to know for some stupid reason.
His fingers curled into fists.“I can’t answer that question.”
“What has you so confused?”I couldn’t look away from him, from the way he seemed to be struggling.“You’re not in Heaven anymore, you can do what you want.”
His gaze lifted, locking on mine, and his nostrils flared.“For a while, everything I thought I believed, everything I thought I wanted, dissolved to dust.”He closed the space between us, until he was standing so close we were almost touching but not quite.My heart raced faster, the heat flowing from him seeped into my skin and swirled through my body.Oh gods, I wanted him so badly I ached.“And I never fully recovered from it.”He shook his head.“I never want to go through anything like that again,” he finished.
That wasn’t an answer, not by a long shot.But I didn’t need one, did I?I didn’t need him to elaborate.Keep your damned mouth shut.Don’t do it.Do not ask.“You’re talking in riddles, angel.”I couldn’t stop myself.
His silver eyes flashed.“You fucking know what I’m talking about.”
Nine
Silas
Wasshe baiting me on purpose?Mocking me?
Her vibrant green eyes flashed.“Why don’t you spell it out,” she said.
Rage and lust pounded through me.My head spun, my mouth had gone dry, and my cock was growing heavier by the second.“You,” I growled out.“You shattered everything I thought I wanted, Ursula, and you fucking know it.”
“I did no such thing.If anything was shattered, it was by you.I didn’t force you into bed, angel, you came willingly.”
I had.I’d never wanted anything more in my long life.I’d let her lead me into temptation.I’d lain with a female, something I’d never done before, because resisting her had been impossible.I drew in a desperate breath, filling my lungs with her intoxicating scent.I was so close to her, but it wasn’t enough.It was as if I were drawn to her by an invisible force.“You made me want you, crave you, only you, then you took it all away and left me with nothing,” I snarled, surprising even myself.
“And whose fault was that?”she said, not stepping back, staying right there, a breath away.
“I told you that kiss with Uma was a mistake.”My voice was so deep and rough, I barely recognized it.
Her gaze slid down my chest, over my stomach, and lingered on my groin before meandering back up.“I know it was a mistake, Silas.”
Every muscle in my body jolted.“Then why have you…”
She pressed her finger to my lips.“I don’t want to talk about my twin anymore.”She pressed her hips against mine.
I sucked in a sharp breath.“What are you doing?”
“We have a truce, don’t we?”
I held her stunning gaze, looking for the rage, the hatred, there was nothing but hunger staring back.“Are you saying you want to?—”