“Of course.”
“Thanks, friends. You have no idea what he wants me for,” she complained.
“That’s why we’re going so quickly,” Vee replied with a wicked cackle. Helen rolled her eyes, said goodbye to her friends, and ended the call.
I took the phone from her hand and threw it on the sofa. “What’s wrong with my outfit?”
She swallowed audibly, her eyes raking over my bare chest. “Nothing. I mean, it’s a little distracting, and it makes me want to do unspeakable things to you.”
“Oh yeah, and what would you do?”
She traced her finger down my chest, skimming across the elastic of my shorts. “I’d want to touch you, Jax. I know you said you’ve never come that way, but it doesn’t mean I don’t want to get to know every inch of you.”
“Helen—”
My words fell away as she pressed her hand sideways over my shaft as her thumb hooked into my shorts and rubbed over my cockhead. It was the most intense feeling, which brought a tear to my eye because I wanted more. I wanted her to own every part of me, but I was so scared to let her find out the truth.
Wrapping my fingers around her wrist to control her movements, I let my hips rock into her hold, my core tightening with need, but I couldn’t let go because then she’d knoweverything, and I knew for sure she wouldn’t be as interested in me then.
“I need to be inside you, beautiful.”
Disappointment flashed over Helen’s face, but before I could think too much about what not letting her touch me was doing to her, I lifted her over my shoulder, ignoring her screams to put her down, and carried her up the stairs, hoping to distract her with my hands and mouth.
Chapter 29
Helen
“Jax, are you going to be long in there? We’re going to be late.”
He walked out of the bathroom surrounded by a cloud of steam already wearing his underwear despite his body being still damp from the shower, pressing a kiss to my cheek as he passed.
“How come you get to lock the door, but I get you wandering in whenever you feel like it?” I half-joked, making him glance back over his shoulder at me. His expression darkened for a second before his smile returned, but I noticed it didn’t meet his eyes.
“Sorry, habit after living in a shared house all those years and working with a team of firefighters all barging in on me.”
I didn’t believe a word of it.
“Wow, you look hot.”
I looked down at my new cream underwear before offering him a shrug of my shoulder. “I have this insatiable, younger boyfriend these days and he likes me to wear silk.”
Jax grabbed me, pulling me against him so hard that he knocked the air out of my lungs. He rubbed his now hard cock against my hip. “How long until we need to be at Jasper’s leaving party?” he asked, his voice sounding deeper, as if he was a wolfabout to devour me, and I couldn’t deny that I wanted him to take his fill.
“I need to go in fifteen. He wants a hand setting up. I can meet you there later if you want.”
Jax didn’t reply, walking back into the bedroom as I headed into the bathroom. When I returned a few minutes later, he was pulling on his jeans with his back to me.
“Do you want to tell me what’s wrong?” he asked quietly.
The last few weeks had been lovely. Since we’d gone public, Jax and I had fallen into an easy pattern. He’d meet me for lunch or outside the office when he wasn’t working, I’d leave him notes on the counter when I’d not managed to catch him before his shift, we touched, kissed, made love, fucked… he made me come so many times I was a pro at it now, but his refusal to let me touch him burned and the sting from it got stronger by the day, overshadowing all the other parts of our relationship.
“Nothing,” I replied. I’d tried to explain to him a couple of times, but it always came back to the fact that he felt uncomfortable being touched, and then I felt selfish for pushing it and making him feel worse.
I took my dress from the hanger and slipped it over my head, the soft material spilling down my body. Standing in front of the mirror, I added the cream belt that cinched it in at the waist, giving me an hourglass figure. The sleeveless, high-necked dress was a beautiful light green colour and something I would never have worn in the past, but I loved the way it made me look.
Picking up my new heels, I turned to find Jax staring at me. “Helen, stop trying to distract me by looking so fucking stunning.” He shook his head. “I can feel something is wrong.”
“My friend died, my son is leaving, I’m dating a younger man who makes me come a lot… life feels like it’s been shaken up a bit. I just need a minute to get used to it all.”