Kilo chuckled. “They’re both grown, and he’s older than her son.”
I shook my head because that was really all I could do. It had been a week since I’d run into Skye at the bowling alley. I was surprised to see her, but when I saw who she was with, I was shocked . . . and pissed.
I didn’t know her date’s exact age, but I knew he was several years younger than her just by how he dressed and behaved.I couldn’t believe she wouldn’t give me a chance, but she was fucking around with that little ass boy.
“I don’t know what to think of her anymore,” I said.
Kilo frowned. “What do you mean?”
It was Saturday afternoon, and Nyomi had left the twins with Kilo while she ran errands. He’d called me over to chill, and since I wasn’t busy, I came through.
“She’s almost forty and would rather fuck around with little boys?—”
“Man, chill. You got her sounding like a damn pedophile because you’re in your feelings.”
“She’d rather hop from dick to dick than settle down with one person.”
“You don’t know what that woman does with her body parts, so stop making assumptions. You’re mad because she’s giving other niggas a chance but won’t give you one. Admit it.”
“Hell yeah, I’m pissed. I don’t know what it is about her, but I can’t seem to get the idea of me and her out of my mind. We haven’t so much as kissed, but I still can’t stop thinking about her ass. Is this what falling in love feels like?”
“It sounds like you could be in love, and I feel you, Bruh. I also understand you want the opportunity to explore your feelings with her, but . . .”
“But what?” I pressed.
“She told you she didn’t want to get married or have kids. Is that something you still want to do?”
“Yeah.”
“I bet you think you can change her mind, don’t you?”
A year had passed since Skye and I went on a date. We had a great time, enjoyed music, food, and dope conversation. I was disappointed when she told me she wasn’t interested in exclusivity, marriage, or having a family. The first thing thatcame to mind when she told me was that I could change her mind if given the opportunity.
“You don’t even have to answer, because I know your ego has convinced you that you can.”
“Maybe.”
He shook his head. “You shouldn’t even want that, Bruh. You can’t pursue a woman who’s been upfront and honest with you about what she wants and doesn’t want, thinking you can change her mind or that she might change her mind over time. You have to go into it with your eyes wide open, understanding that you may not get what you want, and be okay with that.”
Kilo was right. I either had to accept that Skye wasn’t the woman for me or be okay with the possibility of never having children.
“I hear you, and you’re right. I wish at least one of the women I’ve gone out with stayed on my mind like Skye’s pretty ass. I low-key feel like she put a spell on me. I’ve never felt this kinda shit for a woman, and we haven’t even had sex.”
“That’s it right there. Skye is the first woman you’ve pursued who has denied you, so you’re hyper-focused on conquering her. She ain’t feeling you, so?—”
“I never said she wasn’t feeling me because we got chemistry like a muthafucka. I low-key think her feelings for me are as strong as mine are for her.”
“I agree that y’all got great chemistry. She ain’t fucking with you, though, so now your ego is bruised.”
I wanted to agree with my brother, but I couldn’t bring myself to. I wasn’t drawn to Skye for no reason. She was special, and when I closed my eyes at night, I saw a future with her. We had a little girl who had Skye’s face with my skin tone, including my freckles, and a head full of thick hair.
I refused to believe the visions I had meant nothing, but I had no idea what to do. I couldn’t force her to give me an opportunityto show her how good we could be together. I’d have to do what she told me on the night we met and let the universe do its thing.
My brother and I talked for a while longer before the boys woke up from their nap. I stuck around to hang out with my nephews, and I was still there when Nyomi returned home. To my surprise, Skye was with her.
Nyomi made a beeline for Kilo, and after she kissed Kilan’s forehead, she planted a kiss on Kilo’s lips. I watched as they whispered something to each other. It was crazy to see my brother in love, but it warmed my heart at the same time.
“Hey, Titi’s babies!” Skye greeted the boys with excitement.