“We love youtoo.”
“I should go. I’ll let you know when I know something, but I’m gonna head back to the city soon. I can’t stay here forever. Besides, I’m gonna get fired if I don’t show my face in the officesoon.”
“Hey, I’m sure Mode would love to have someone like you in their legal department. You just say theword.”
“You don’t know how appealing that sounds right now. I’ll try and call you soon. And maybe I’ll hop back into chat. I feel weird being away thislong.”
“Eh, you’re not missing anything, but you know we always love to have you around. I don’t know if you saw, but Rayna saw Langdon and they are going to hang out again. I’m on deck to ride out to Oklahoma if he messes this upagain.”
“I am so down for that,” Ilaugh.
“Hit me up when you can. Loveyou.”
“Love you too.” I end the call, then almost have a heart attack when something wet and cold brushes against my knee. Honeycrisp found another ratty tennis ball. I reach down and use two fingertips to pull it out of her mouth. “I’m adding new tennis balls to Silas’s next Target list.” I launch the ball across the yard, then take a seat on the porch and wait for her to bring itback.
* * *
IfindSilas in the kitchen microwaving a patty melt. He’s put his basketball shorts back on, but that’s it. I sit with him and pick at a mountain of cold bacon chili cheese fries while he stuffs his face. He watches me almost the whole time, but he doesn’t say a word. I don’t say a word. It’snice.
When he’s finished, he wipes his mouth with one of the white diner napkins then sits back and rubs his stomach. He just put down like five pounds of food, but that six pack is still in topform.
“How long can you keep a sex tape before it has to be erased?” heasks.
“I think you run into trouble around the twelve hour mark, to behonest.”
“We should watch it now then.” He stands and throws away our trash, then walks over to the sink and turns on the faucet. He looks over his shoulder at me. “Just gotta wash my hands. I wanna get real good under mynails.”
“Good call.” I step up to the sink next to him and bump his hip. Then I grab the soap and wash my hands. “Go get in bed and we’ll check out your on-cameradebut.”
“I feel cheap and slutty,” he says as he walks out of thekitchen.
I follow close behind and turn off the kitchen light. I grip his ass with both of my hands. “Youshould.”
Fourteen
We shutdown the house for the night. We battle Honeycrisp when we find her in the middle of the bed like she’s the queen of the whole damn place. I brush my teeth and wrap my hair before I get comfortable and forget to do it. Silas sets his alarm. I check my work email and when I feel my mood starting to shift, I tell myself the emails that pose questions about a case that I am not being paid to consult on can wait for the morning. We climb into bed with my laptop. I make myself comfortable between Silas’s legs. He wraps his arms around my waist. He rests his chin on myshoulder.
“You ready?” I askhim.
“I’ve watched plenty of porn before,” hesays.
“Yeah, but you’ve never seen yourself like this.” I turn my head and kiss him on the cheek. “It can be a bit addicting. You’ll be wanting to make one of these at least twice aweek.”
“Local farmer arrested in a small town sex tape ring,” hesays.
“Pretty much,” I laugh. “Here we go.” I press play. I've seen myself on a recording before, but this is something else. Or rather it's something else withSilas.
This almost giddiness hits me as I watch myself drag my nails down his chest. And I feel little bit of regret. My pleasure will always be central, but I should spend more time just looking at him. I feel… lucky to be with someone so fine, so well put together. It's a treat for all the senses, I think to myself and then I actually have to stop myself from giggling like a fool. Usually I’d cover my unease with off-color comments and jokes, but Silas is dead silent. I keep my mouth shut and decide to let him enjoythis.
“Can you turn it up?” he says. I turn it up a little louder. I try to focus on the screen, but as the seconds tick by and Silas’s dick becomes harder and harder against my back, I can only think about what I want to do to him next. I lace my fingers with his over my stomach andwait.
“Why did you keep your clothes on?” he asks. I’m sucking my fingers on thescreen.
“I don’t know, actually. Just a habit. I think it’s sexy, not showing all of your skin. Do you hate thattoo?”
“No, I was just wondering. It is sexy, but you’re sexy naked too. I think you’re sexy all thetime.”
“Such acharmer.”