“Why do you think you need a therapist?” he asks before pressing a kiss onto my head.
“I have this fear. Of losing you. It’s the same fear behind the nightmares.”
Rubbing my back softly as I lie on his chest, Sud says, “I don’t think that’s unreasonable considering your issues with your parents.”
“Yeah, but I need help to overcome it. I can’t do it alone.” I look up at him. “Will you make another appointment at the clinic? And I’ll make one with a therapist.”
“Okay, he agrees, smiling softly before kissing me.
Chapter Thirty-four: Sud
Six months later
Hearts Set on Fireis an immediate hit. Message boards on all the bl sites fill with positive comments, and, between studies, Noi and I struggle to keep up with them.
“I can’t believe this!” Noi shouts from the bedroom. I’m putting the last touches on a research paper due in two hours and barely look up from my computer.
“What?”
“They’re ghost-shipping you and P’Pan!”
The episode where P’Pan and I fight aired last night.
“You’ve got to be kidding me,” I say. “People are so weird.”
“Apparently, that fight scene showed a lot ofchemistrybetween the two of you.“ Noi’s voice comes from behind me, and I startle, accidentally erasing my entire paper.
“Fuck!”
Noi leans over me and hits control Z, and my paper comes back. Sighing, I make the last couple of corrections and send it in.
“Fans do strange things. You know that by now,” I say, closing my computer.
“Yeah, but we want them to be shipping us, not you and P’Pan!”
Jealous Noi is really cute. He’s gotten better, though. As promised, he’s seeing a therapist and working on his abandonment issues, and subsequently, he doesn’t seem as insecure in our relationship. It helps that most of the girls at school know we’re probably together. We don’t advertise it because we’re not sure that would be good for our ship, but I’m sure it’s pretty obvious.
I’m doing better, too. Ever since the day he broke down at our house and remembered the incident at Kaeng Krachan, I’ve been trying not to be so protective of him. I think he appreciates it.
I’ve also kept my promise and gotten tested. I’ve been hanging onto the results, waiting for a break in our schedule and the right time to show them to Noi.
“Well, we’ll just have to give them something else to focus on.” I pull him down in my lap. “Get comfortable and smile.”
Noi doesn’t smile, but the resulting picture with him slouched in my lap, resting his head on my chest and pouting at the camera, is even better than the one I planned. I post the picture on all my social media sites and wait for the results. Noi scoffs but watches my phone screen expectantly.
It’s pretty crazy the way the comments begin coming in right away, all of them exclaiming how cute we are together. I feel Noi relax on my lap.
“Feel better now?” I ask, putting my phone down on the bar where it continues to ping with incoming comments.
“I was fine with it,” Noi says, standing only to turn around and sit back down on my lap, this time facing me.
“Uh, huh,” I say, wrapping my arms around him and pulling him closer until I have to tilt my head to look up at him. “Here, I’ve got something to show you.” I pick up my phone again and pull up the results. “All clean. We can get rid of the condoms.”
Noi’s eyes widen and then he grins, already unbuttoning my shirt. When Noi feels me getting hard against his ass, he wiggles seductively in my lap.
We’re home alone, and it isn’t three minutes until I’ve got him bent over the arm of the sofa, shorts around his ankles, and I’m sinking into him with my bare cock.
I think I’ve died and gone to heaven, it feels so good. Noi’s made it clear by this time that being manhandled turns him on, the little minx. I’ve got no problem with it. In fact, I think I’ve discovered a new kink myself.