Comments:
Dale Garrett:Can you people stop talking in code???
Kerry Winsor:WHAT?! They’re TOGETHER!!!
Jade Clark:Yep. She wouldn’t be out in public holding hands with him if she didn’t want people to know.
Hu Gh:Fucking FINALLY!!!
Tammy Jane:He better not mess it up ...
When I woke up alone,I had a split second of panic. The bed was cold next to me, and my first thought was that he was gone.
Then I took a breath and remembered that Dean wouldn’t leave. We were together now. Everything was good. I needed to trust that he wasn’t goingto vanish.
As I sat up, I listened for the sounds of him moving through the house. I’d bet he found a project to work on and I’d hear it from here.
When only silence met my ears, my lips pressed together. Had he gone out for breakfast?
Walking to the living room, I searched for any sign of him. His hat was still on the counter, and he hadn’t packed up his stuff, but there was a note on the dining room table.
Gone driving. Needed space.
I stared at it, willing for it to give me more information. When the words didn’t, I was tempted to beg the universe for more.
The note was written quickly. I’d never seen his handwriting, but I could have sworn this was done with a shaking hand. He was an electrician. His hands had to be mostly steady.
What had happened?
And why did he go through it alone?
I thought back to the day before. I’dknownsomething was wrong, but I kept chalking it up to my own fears. Him coming here and telling me he had feelings for me felt too good to be true. Things like this just didn’thappen. People didn’t change.
And he had.
But waking up in a cold bed with only a note made me question that.
I should’ve asked. I shouldn’t have ignored his distant eyes when he thought I wasn’t looking. It would have been better to face it rather than let it turn into this.
He’d told me he was out of practice with relationships. I was too.
I pinched the bridge of my nose, trying to stop myself from crying. My mind conjured all the things he could be up to. Didhe go find someone else? Was he alone through something terrible?
Did he just not wantme?
A tear slipped out, falling on the paper. I put it down, the crash of emotions hitting me hard. Being pregnant made it all worse, and I wasn’t sure I could survive this alone.
It was tempting to call him, but I didn’t know if I should since he’d said he needed space. I didn’t knowanything,and my mind spun trying to figure out what I’d done to mess things up.
Was it that I fell asleep early? Was it something I said on the date?
I was spiraling, unhelpful thoughts making me feel worse. Pulling my phone out, I sent a message to the three people who I knew would be there for me.
Girl meeting. It’s an emergency.
Wren
I’m stopping work for the day.