I release him just as people come around the corner.
I feel like I just dropped a bomb.
Shock falls over his face, and I’m just as fucking confused about the emotions that are firing inside me like I’m stepping on land mines.
I’m so fucked up about you, Knox.
It’s too much.
Too vulnerable.
Because when you start to say things likedon’t fuck other people, the natural next step is to be exclusive. To date. Beboyfriends. Be committed. And that’s something I’ve never, ever wanted. How could one hot frat boy be altering my architecture so much that I’m thinking about things I’ve never even considered before?
The panic starts to hit slowly. My whole life, I’ve only believed one thing:getting involved with anyone is a bad, bad road to go down.
I begin to jog off, and even as my head is spinning, my cock still aches like a goddamn weight between my legs.
Running away from him? As if that’ll stop you from having feelings for him?
I’m at war with myself, and I’m certain now that I’m going to lose.
When I feel my phone buzz in my pocket a minute later, I pull it out fast, desperate for a tether back to reality.
But it’s him.
Of course it’s you.
If you’re going to fuck with me like this, you should know something about me.
What’s that?
I’m needy. And impatient.
My cock throbs and I have to pause for a moment as I’m jogging, leaning up against a half-wall with a bed of colorful tulips below it. I’m still so desperate for him it hurts even as my mind is melting down.
Needy for…?
If no one else is allowed to fuck me, then you better give it to me. Anytime I want it.
Fuck.
Fuck, he’s perfect.
He’s perfect even when I’m acting like a complete basket case, making demands of him out of nowhere and then fleeing the scene because intimacy is the one thing in my life I have zero control over.
And that’s what’s different about him, I realize.
Intimacyscares me, but with him, it doesn’t feel difficult at all.
It would be harder to ignore it than to give in.
It’s always right there crackling between us, and the moment I let slip that I didn’t want anyone else touching him, it became clear that it’s a need.
I’m practically vibrating out of my skin as I tap out a reply to him, my heart slamming inside my chest.
I have a Double Daggers house meeting tonight. Find me afterward, and I’ll give you the cock you need so badly.
Nope. I’m needy. I want you sooner than that. I’ll come to the Daggers house before the meeting, so be ready.