He swallows.
His eyes look brilliant in the daylight, and I’m hit with another deep urge to possess him.
“You can fuck me. But that doesn’t mean we’re friends.”
I give him a playful little pout, leaning back and looking him in the eye. “But I’ve told you I’m solonely.Don’t you want a new friend, baby?”
“Quit calling me baby.”
“Why?”
“Because I’m not your boyfriend.”
“You kiss me like you are.”
“Yeah, but I’mnot,” he says firmly. “And I know you don’t do relationships. When we fuck, and when Ikissyou, I know it’s just for the express purpose getting off. That’s all you want.”
I let out a frustrated groan, looking up at the sky for a moment. “I don’t know what I want anymore.”
He pushes me back firmly for a moment, gripping the front of my shirt in his fists and furrowing his brow.
“Don’t screw with me, Sev. What do you want? Actually want?”
I pull in a deep breath, pausing for a moment.
It feels like Wes is trying to dig around inside me, or something, a vulnerable feeling that I’m not used to at all.
His gaze is so serious.
And something splits inside me, words tumbling out before I can corral them.
“Don’t fuck anyone but me.”
He blinks at me, his expression dropping from anger to confusion. “What?”
I pull in a long breath. “Don’t. Fuck. Other. People. That’s what I want.”
“But you’re…”
“Are you ever going to quit trying to tell me what I am?”
“You alwaysencouragethe girls you’re with to sleep with whoever they want.”
I nod at him and let my hand slip around his neck for a moment, giving it a brief squeeze, just a quick reminder of the other night.
Fuck, it’s too good.
The idea of anyone else touching you…
The sound of a door being pushed open comes from around the corner of the building. Within moments, I know students will be streaming out from around the corner.
“Nothing makes any sense when I’m with you,” I tell him.
There’s panic in his eyes. “I know the things you want in life. And they aren’t the same as me?—”
My voice picks up too much intensity as I speak again.
“Well, maybe I want you to be mine, and maybe I don’t how how the hell to handle that, either.”