What the fuck am I doing?
“I’m so sorry,” I stammer, running my hands through my hair she was just touching and that I enjoyed her doing. “I have to go.” I should never have agreed to help her. “I’ll pick you up tomorrow. Send me your address.” I avoid eye contact, unable to understand why I did what I did without asking her if it was okay to kiss her and touch her soft skin.
She’s too pure and too perfect, and she doesn’t need my fucked-up head ruining that.
Storming toward my suit bag, I unhook it from the coat stand, unable to bring myself to look back, and I dig my wallet out of my pocket and pull out a dozen or so Benjamins, slapping them down on the counter. “That should cover the cost of your dress, shoes, and a purse too.”
Sapphire protests but I wave my hand in the air, dismissing her before disappearing into the dusky night, hoping that distance can erase what I shouldn’t have done but have longed to do for weeks.
It felt good.
Too good.
The kind of good that makes you lose control, but I don’t lose control.
I took things too far. Yet not far enough.
My cock got hard. All from a kiss, and it wasn’t even on that tempting fucking mouth of hers.
Fuck, what the hell is wrong with me? Next thing I know, I’ll be coming in my boxers when she tucks her hair behind her ear.
I was excited about tomorrow, but now it feels more like a punishment than a celebration.
22
SAPPHIRE
I’m sitting in bed with the television on in the background. However, I have no idea what the plot is as I’m absentmindedly petting Ghost, who’s snuggled up next to me, while I daydreamingly admire my pretty new dress hanging on the back of my bedroom door that Eli said I look beautiful in. The one he insisted he pay for.
My phone chimes, alerting me to a new text breaking my swoonfest.
I hurriedly pick up my phone when I see Eli’s name flash across the screen, my heart fluttering in my chest like a butterfly trapped in a jar, and open the text.
Eli
Please accept my apologies for what happened earlier today. It was unprofessional of me, and it should never have occurred.
Me
I’m not sorry.
Eli
It won’t happen again.
Me
I want it to.
Eli
I can have one of my brothers handle the rest of the event details with you if you’d prefer.
Me
That’s unnecessary, and I don’t prefer that as an option.
Eli