"Yes, dating and more. What do you think about living together? We've been spending so much time together and I'd hate for that to end. I love being with you. Iloveyou."
"Love? Living together? I don't know. This is going a little too fast. I can't promise anything. I can't. Besides, you're full of it. Once the tour is done and you're in one place, you'll want to keep moving again. You said so yourself, you're a gypsy. I understand what we have is just for the tour, and I'm okaywiththat."
"No, it’s notlikethat."
"Please, I really don't want to talk about this. I can't talk about anything with the future or love anyway. I just can't. I can't see it. Why can't things be simple? Let's just take things one day atatime."
"But,Jordan--"
"No, I'm serious. I can't talk about this. It’stoomuch."
She got out of bed and picked up her dress from the floor and starteddressing.
"What are you doing? Where are yougoing?"
"Back to my room. I just…I don't know. I need to be alone. I really care about you, Dylan, I just…I can't, okay? Please, just one day atatime."
"Okay, whatever you want. Whatever ittakes."
She kissed him quick then grabbed her shoes and left his room without putting them on. She loved him, she knew it. She just couldn't say it. Could she imagine being with anyone else? No, but who knew what thefutureheld?
People were unreliable to Jordan. One minute they said they loved you, the next minute they were lying to your face or screwing you over, she thought. She had learned to protect herself at ayoungage.
Returning to her room, she thought about how sweet Dylan had been on their date and all night holding her. While she’d had sex with other guys before, not having sex with Dylan fulfilled something deep inside her. Sleeping next to him was the most intimate thing she ever did, and she felt closer to him. Her heart felt full just thinkingabouthim.
Jordan knew she'd be crushed when he came to his senses and left her, but taking it one day at a time, she didn't have to worry about that yet. He didn't love her, he just wanted something from her. He'd probably be gone once he got laid. But he didn't even try. He had stopped her. Confused, she curled up on the couch and turned on the TV, hoping to numb herbrain.