He didn’t actually know what he was doing. Sure, he’d kissed dozens of people before, on camera and off. He’d kissed other guys on camera. He and Nikky were close enough friends that they’d just gone for it and actually kissed each other while filming instead of doing some staged shit. Same with Joe. But it felt entirely different to kiss a man when he meant it, when feelings were involved and when clothes started to come off.
He was surprisingly eager to get naked with Lee and to see him naked. Everything he’d ever told himself about being able to appreciate the beauty of the male body despite being straight was reframed in an instant. Once Lee’s clothes and glasses were off and they tumbled onto the bed together, his thoughts about what made a man smoking hot were completely rearranged.
“You’re amazing,” he panted, kissing Lee’s neck again and making his way down to his shoulder. Those two words had to contain a hurricane’s worth of thoughts, because he couldn’t think of any other words that came close to what his brain, heart, and body were really telling him.
“You’re not too bad yourself,” Lee said, stroking his hands around Drew’s sides to his back, then down to grip his ass.
Yes. That was what he wanted. He wanted Lee to touch him everywhere. He wanted to be felt and known and cherished. For who he was, not for who the camera said he was. And while he’d assumed he wouldn’t care whether a woman or a man was touching him, he very much did. He loved the fact that Lee was a man, that his body was just as hard, though not as built, and his hunger was equally fierce.
It definitely was. Lee flipped him to his back and treated him to kisses and touches that had him rocketing to the edge far too quickly. He forced himself to pull back, focus, and not come like a teenager before he could explore everything he wanted to know.
Lee didn’t make that easy, though. Especially not when he kissed his way down Drew’s chest and belly like he was worshiping every inch of skin and tightened muscle under his lips. Drew didn’t think he’d ever been so appreciated in his life.
When Lee reached his cock, playing with his balls for a second before running his hand up his shaft and fisting it a few times, he had to call on all his powers of restraint not to lose it then and there. As it was, he could only let Lee go down on him,using his mouth like pleasure was an art form, for a handful of seconds.
“Stop, stop,” he gasped, nudging Lee back slightly. “I’m too close, and I want to fuck you.”
The words were a surprise, even to him. The way Lee glanced up at him from between his legs with a look of combined shock and hunger nearly did Drew in.
“Are you sure?” Lee asked, pushing himself up to kneel between Drew’s spread legs. The sight just about made Drew die.
“God, yes, I’m sure,” he said.
“Really?” Lee asked again, the corners of his mouth pulling up.
“Yes, really,” Drew said, losing patience.
“Okay,” Lee said, crawling over Drew until his hands were planted by Drew’s shoulders and he could bend down to kiss him tenderly. “Let me just go prep first.”
Logic told Drew that was necessary. Desire meant it annoyed him. And as soon as Lee jumped off the bed and hurried into the bathroom, whispers of doubt crept around the corners of Drew’s certainty. It was laughable to think of himself as a virgin, but there was a first time for everything, and this would definitely be a first time.
While Lee was busy in the bathroom, Drew rolled to the side and took the liberty of searching in the drawer of the bedside table. Thankfully, he found exactly what he was looking for there. Among the lube and condoms were a handful of toys that he definitely wanted to know more about, but not right now.
The mood had diminished a lot as Drew waited on the bed, fiddling with the lube bottle, but heat raced through him again when Lee emerged, looking gorgeous and flushed and mischievous.
“You really want to do this,” he said as he crawled back onto the bed with Drew.
“Yes!” Drew laughed. “You don’t need to keep asking me.”
“I just want to be sure,” Lee said, half teasing, half concern. “Because I know you’re upset about things with Jessica, and I don’t want to let you do something so intense because you’re mad at someone else.”
Any temptation to be pissed off about Lee dragging his feet melted in an instant, and feelings that were dangerously tender rushed in to take their place. No one had ever been so considerate of him in bed in his life.
“I want you,” he said, looking Lee dead in the eyes with fire. “I have a choice of anyone in the world, and I want you.”
Maybe it was gross of him to say that, but Lee took it the way it was intended. He let out a heavy breath and surged into Drew, kissing him hard and grinding their mouths together.
Drew wanted other things ground together, but it suddenly dawned on him as he kissed Lee and wrestled him awkwardly onto his back that the only things he knew about having gay sex were the ways he’d faked it for a camera before and the conversations he’d had with Nikky. It should have been easy. Lee had a hole, he had a dick that was getting harder by the second. But Drew wanted the experience to be good for both of them, not just sticking his dick in a tight space and getting off because of it.
“Tell me,” Lee said, legs spread, gripping Drew’s arms as he balanced above him.
The tenderness was still there, even though Lee was sweating and desperate for it. Knowing they both wanted the other to really enjoy themselves made Drew feel free.
“I don’t actually know what I’m doing,” he confessed. “I want it to be good for you, but this is my first time with a guy.”
Lee nodded. “We’ll go for simple,” he said, shifting and rolling to his stomach and lifting his hips to more or less point his ass at Drew. “Don’t overthink it, and don’t worry about me.”
“I’m definitely worried about you,” Drew said, adjusting so he was positioned right between Lee’s spread legs. “I don’t want to hurt you or anything.”