I’ve more than fallen.
I’m in love with Ms. Jolee Fern.
40
Jolee
It’s Monday morning. The weekend flew by in the best way. I didn’t want it to end despite being a little sore.
It feels surreal to be standing in their kitchen sipping coffee again, but this time under my terms. I’m right where I want to be. But you can’t stay forever. My mind reminds me of what this can’t be.
Taking the time to get to know them strengthened this connection between all of us. It’s explosive. No part of my body is untouched by them.
My head and heart are on two different paths. My mind says it’s just sex. Really freaking good sex. My heart wants to say it’s more than that. The four-letter word that I’m afraid even to think.
That wasn’t supposed to be part of my life, but I’m on a new path. A new plan where I get to choose what I want. I do want to be loved and build something special with someone.
Grant had to leave for work to meet with the construction crew fixing his store. He gave me a quick kiss and said he would see me soon. I don’t know what he’s thinking, and that scares me. I know he loves my body. But does he feel more than that for me?
I stare out the window, expecting it to give me all my answers.
“Hey.” Clay comes up and wraps his arms around me.
“Hey.” I snuggle back into him. I’m in no hurry to head back to my apartment.
“I want to ask you something.” He turns me around to face him. “Jo, we want you here with us. This weekend proved that we want you close all the time. No more distance.”
Oh.
What?
“What do you mean? I guess I need you to spell it out for me because I’m lost. You guys are married. I’m not sure where that puts me?” Moving in sounds permanent, and I don’t think I’ll ever want to try getting married again.
“Jo, I’ve fallen for you. I’m all in. I want you in my life. This might seem too soon, but my heart knows what it wants.”
“And Grant?” I can’t help but want to know how he feels. I wish he were here, too. “This doesn’t work without him.”
“I’ll let him tell you himself, but just know we’ve talked about this. We are on the same page. It’s not something either of us expected, but wouldn’t change it for anything.”
“I need to think about this. I don’t want the distance either, but I still don’t know how this is all supposed to work.”
“I understand. That’s okay. I just want you, and we want to see you happy. We want to be what makes you happy.”
“And you think that’s with you?” I can’t help but give him a little sass this morning. My heart beats faster.
He grabs me and picks me up. I squeal in surprise as he sets me on the counter.
“Do I need to prove that again? I thought we just spent the weekend doing just that.”
I laugh. It feels so good to laugh with him. Why wouldn’t I want to try this?
“Maybe I forgot already,” I tease because I just want more of him, and I know he likes it when I do. It feels good to just be me with them.
I want more. I want it all with them, but I’m scared. Scared this won’t work or they’ll change their minds.
He drops his running shorts to the floor, exposing his hard cock. All my worries vanish at the sight. His cock is truly magnificent.
“I guess I need to be more convincing.”