"There are some righteous quality burns coming Tayla Livingstons way. These songs are about you and Jenny, not her. Let her sit there and suffer her mistakes knowing she can do nothing about it." Lex says and I smile, but it saddens me.
"I aint trying to hurt anyone here. If shit was different and we split over mutual shit, she is the first person I would tell you to work for. My dislike isn’t for her ability, but it is personal. Rubbing her nose in it is childish and can hold a bad rep."
"Well, I will be childish and you can be professional. Bottom line is neither one of us will be stumped or scared of her presence." Lex says and I do agree with that.
"Here’s your beer, and can I say something?" Raleigh asks as I take the beer.
"Sure." I say and start adjusting the sound again, Chad following my ques so we get it to match.
"Keep it about business and nothing more. Be professional and a strong sexy Ox like you are. Then, tell her thank you or whatever when all is said and done. Be grateful for the show of support and interest, but respectfully decline."
"That was almost adult sounding coming from you kid." Noah says and we all laugh.
"Don’t let my smarts and business mind fool you daddio. I understand the importance of saving face when confronted with adversity. Cheating ex, imprisoned father, homophobic parents... never ever let them see you sweat. Sometimes being the bigger and better person is the cruelest of burns."
We are all floored by the serious tone and good advice from Ral. He jokes non-stop and loves for all of us to pander and spoil him. "Stop looking at me like you don’t know who I am or I put one direction on." He says and goes back to reading his Cosmo magazine.
My phone alerts me to a text from Jen and I smile by the simplest shit from her lately.
Red: Headed to the PIT. Be brilliant as always and I will suck you dry tonight superstar.
All thoughts of music, bookings and ex's fade when I am slammed with an image of her heart shaped mouth on my cock.
Me: Fuck yeah, Red. Can I stretch that sweet pussy over my dick after I cum down your throat?
All is fair, she started it and now my mind was in the gutter. Red, like me, loves being nasty as fuck in bed. So nasty, we could make Noah blush.
Red: Stop or I have to change my panties... Or maybe I will go without just so you know I am easy access all day should you need a break.
Me: If I take a break then I will come fuck you. I guarantee it. But please for my sanity wear panties. Mmmm wear the coral thong that ties on the hips. I will undo them with my teeth before I eat you out and make you fuck my face.
I just threw the gauntlet down and she knows it.
Red: Now I need to finger myself before work.
I laugh out loud and re-adjust my throbbing dick when I turn from the guys.
Me: Send pictures firefly. Gotta work, love you.
I hit send before I thought better of it and drop my phone before I fall back in the chair in full blown panic.
Jen
Cal: Send me pictures firefly. Gotta work, Love you.
I stare at the message and try to breathe. I know I am over-reacting. I could see Cal telling me he loves me through a text easily because he hides and masks his emotions better than anyone I know. That being said though, he isn’t telling me. I think it was a slip or said in the way he tells Bright or Carrie and Cassa.
I don’t want to leave it in case it meant something and I don’t want to respond to that either in case it wasn’t meant. After too long to hide my internal struggle I send a quick, non-intrusive response.
Me: Okay, work hard.
I get to work and check my phone wondering if he sent me anything and I go over the fifty thousand reasons I am both over-reacting and not over-reacting. It is pathetic how my day started off with cute and sexy texts to this turmoil. What the fuck, honestly?
I try to get my mind in the game because I have a few appointments coming in today and want to give them my full attention.
"Look who popped in to work today." CD snarls as I walk in the door and I know he is hurt and angry by my refusal to date him.
"Knock it off you crybaby." Asa says and hugs me as I check my schedule. "Hey gorgeous, don’t listen to him. You have everything you have ever wanted within your grasp. English will get over it."