Every. Fucking. Night.
Except tonight… Tonight I had, had enough.
By the time we make it inside I storm down the hall to my room and slam the door. I grab my phone and text Cass and Carrie simultaneously.
Me: I cannot take an entire day on the bus with him. I might jump off in moving traffic. Can I come stay with one of you tonight please? Chad or Shame can deal with him. I'm at my limit.
Almost immediately my phone lights up.
Cassa: Shame says give him twenty and he will head over. He is running back to the venue to get his laptop he left in the redroom. Just breathe and avoid him until he is there.
Another text came through as I was reading Cassa's reply.
Carrie: Tell me he didn't bring a fangirl back?
Me: No.
Carrie: Noelle is running a slight fever and is awake so I am glad Shame can do it tonight. I can send Chad, or hell even me and Noelle tomorrow if you need. I just want her to rest tonight.
Me: Thank you.
Cassa: Shame is the Noah whisperer these days and can usually calm him down. He will get to the bottom of it.
Carrie: I'm glad someone can get through to him. God knows he doesn’t want me around anymore, but he is giving me every reason to get in his face.
Me: Please don't say anything guys.
Almost at the exact same time they respond.
Cassa: We won't.
Carrie: I would never.
Cassa: Bring the newFerragamosso I can play with them.
I laugh for the first time today and tell her I will and start packing my bags when he storms in.
Noah
"What the fuck crawled up your ass?" I ask when the door slams against the wall. I had about five minutes of fuming from watching her stomp to her room before making the choice to break the silence.
"You seriously have an issue with knocking." She says and refuses to look at me as she packs-
"Why are you packing?" I can't hide the panic in my tone at seeing her pack. I know I've been on edge and distant, but it was for her benefit not mine. I knew it that day, after Chad left. Knew that nothing was better than something.
Had I said anything it would have blown up, and she ran off so I figured it was fair. This isn't what I wanted though. I was still feeling her, seeing her, watching as she would write in her little notebook after we did steps. I knew her and that terrified me.
"I can't be near you right now." She says and turns from the bed so I can see her red swollen eyes. "I don't know what I did to make you hate me Noah. I wasn't the only one doing the dry humping, but you seem to act like I am to blame so I am leaving for the night to get a grip."
I close the door when I hear one of the security guys shut the main door and I could hear them laughing and none of them need a reminder of our one hot fling.
"You're not leaving for good? Just tonight?" The hope in my voice makes me feel weak, but I am weak. I can't handle her leaving. I almost cave every day, if she leaves I will fall apart.
Yes, I am aware I am fucked up.
She glares at me. "Oh I can be gone for good. I will gladly head back to my perfect, drama free, Noah free life. Just say the word."
I take a step toward her and try to take her hand. She steps back and looks at me like I hit her. "Do not fucking touch me."