And that was it.I was gone.
Dylan slammed into me again and my orgasm tore through me without warning.I spilled, untouched, all over the sheets, my body convulsing around him.
“Fuck, Sean.”His hips stuttered and he came inside me with a shout that wasn’t half as restrained as Chantel’s had been, his fingers digging into my hips hard enough to bruise.
For a second, the world was just sensation.His weight as he collapsed against my back.Her hand finding mine on the mattress.The rough drag of his breath on my skin.
Then he pulled out, slow and careful, and the loss of him hit me harder than I expected.
I rolled, falling onto my back.Chantel was already curling against me, her fingers stroking through my hair, her mouth pressing soft kisses to my cheek.
Dylan dealt with the condom and then dropped down on my other side, his arm wrapping around both of us.
I lay there, still catching my breath, letting the quiet settle.
He’d said my name when he came.Not hers.Notenchanté.Not evengood boy, or any of the dirty things he could’ve called me.JustSean.Like for one second I’d been the only thing in his head.
Training camp was in three weeks.Montreal was waiting.I had a new team to learn, a coach to impress, and what was probably my last real shot at making my career mean something before my body decided it had given enough.
None of that felt as immediate as the man breathing steadily on my left and the woman who’d fallen asleep on my right.
So, I guess that’s that.
I wasn’t walking away from this clean.I’d known it since that parking lot on New Year’s Eve.I’d just been too busy arguing with myself about it to realize it was too fucking late.
I turned my head and looked at Dylan.He was staring at her, his expression unreadable.
I should’ve said something.Something easy, something that would fill the silence and erase my doubts.
Instead, I reached over and put my hand on his chest, right over his heart.I felt it beating under my palm and said nothing at all.
He closed his eyes and covered my hand with his.And that was enough.It had to be.
For now, it was everything.