‘Wow,’ I said. ‘But what about friends?’
He looked at me askance.
‘Don’t you miss having friends?’
He narrowed his eyes. ‘No,’ he said simply. ‘Not even slightly.’
He looked as though he was about to leave. I did not want him to leave. I wanted to smell his spearmint breath and find out more about him. My eyes dropped to the book in his hand. ‘What are you reading?’ I asked.
He glanced down and turned the book upwards. It was The Dice Man by Luke Rhinehart, a novel I had not heard of at the time, but which I have since read roughly thirty times. ‘Is it good?’
‘All books are good,’ he said.
‘That’s not true,’ I said. ‘I’ve read some really bad books.’ I was thinking specifically of Anne of Green Gables, which we’d been forced to read the term before and which was the most stupid, annoying book I’d ever encountered.
‘They weren’t bad books,’ Phin countered patiently. ‘They were books that you didn’t enjoy. It’s not the same thing at all. The only bad books are books that are so badly written that no one will publish them. Any book that has been published is going to be a “good book” for someone.’
I nodded. I couldn’t fault his logic.
‘I’ve nearly finished it,’ he said, glancing down at the book in his hand. ‘You can borrow it after me, if you want?’
I nodded again. ‘OK,’ I said. ‘Thank you.’
And then he left. But I stood where I was, my head pulsating, my palms damp, my heart filled with something extraordinary and new.
18
Miller Roe stands as Libby approaches him. She recognises him from his photo on the internet, although he has grown a beard since he had his byline photo taken, and also gained some weight. He is halfway through a very messy sandwich and has a speck of yellow sauce in his beard. He wipes his fingers on a napkin before he takes Libby’s hand to shake and says, ‘Libby, wow, so good to meet you. So good to meet you!’ He has a London accent and dark blue eyes. His hand around hers is huge. ‘Here, sit down. What can I get you? The sandwiches are amazing.’
She glances down at his car crash sandwich and says, ‘I only just had breakfast.’
‘Coffee, tea?’
‘A cappuccino would be nice. Thank you.’
She watches him at the counter of the trendy café on West End Lane where he’d suggested they meet as a midway point between St Albans and South Norwood. He’s wearing low-slung jeans and a faded T-shirt, a green cotton jacket and walking boots. He has a big belly and a large head of thick dark brown hair. He’s slightly overwhelming to look at, ursine but not unappealing.
He brings back her cappuccino and places it in front of her. ‘So grateful to you for coming to meet me. I hope your journey was OK?’ He pushes his sandwich to one side as though he has no intention of eating any more.
‘No problem,’ she says, ‘fifteen minutes, straight through.’
‘From St Albans, right?’
‘Yes.’
‘Nice place, St Albans.’
‘Yes,’ she agrees. ‘I like it.’
‘So,’ he says, stopping and staring meaningfully at her, ‘you’re the baby.’
She laughs nervously. ‘It seems I am.’
‘And you’ve inherited that house?’
‘I have, yes.’
‘Wow,’ he says. ‘Game changer.’