All of it happened at once.
My insides constricted. My inner coil unraveled. And, vibrations shot out in all directions. I held on tightly as my body quaked, and the most intense orgasm I’d ever had ripped through me.
Thayer buried his face in the side of my neck and continued thrusting, his hips chasing his release. Suddenly, he groaned through gritted teeth and his body stilled, his chest rising and falling as he rode out his own orgasm.
I held him close as he relaxed on top of me. His heartbeat raced like mine. I didn’t want to say anything to spoil the moment, so I just lay there with him in my arms, committing it all to memory.
He finally pulled back and stared down at me with flushed cheeks. “Thank you, G.”
I met his gaze. “For what?”
“For making my first time memorable. I was saving myself for you.”
I laughed. “You’re such a liar.”
A smile broke out across his face—a glorious, dimpled, easy smile. “First time with you.”
I shook my head. “Thanks for not making this awkward.”
His brows lifted. “Why would it be awkward?”
Was he seriously going to be this cool about it?
“Let me go get cleaned up, and then we can snuggle,” he said, graciously letting me off the hook so I didn’t have to respond to his question.
“I don’t remember inviting you to stay,” I sassed.
“Well, that’s too bad because I’m staying.” He climbed off the bed and disappeared into the bathroom.
I covered my face with my arms, feeling lighter and more sated than I’d been in a very long time. I hoped we hadn’t screwed everything up. Because the way I felt in that moment was a feeling I’d been devoid of for what felt like forever. And, now that I had it, I didn’t want to let it go.
Thayer returned in all his naked glory and climbed under the sheets with me. He wrapped his arms around me from behind and dropped small kisses to my shoulder. “I could get used to this.”
I closed my eyes, knowing in another life, I could too.
“Go to sleep, G. I’ll be here when you wake up.”
“Promise?” I asked, hoping I didn’t seem as needy as I sounded.
“Promise,” he said.
We didn’t talk after that. I wasn’t sure if Thayer had fallen asleep right away, but I definitely didn’t. My body was abuzz with so many emotions. Confusion. Elation. Fear. I lay there in the darkness, focusing on Thayer’s even breathing. I could get used to falling asleep to that sound each night, not to mention having his strong arms wrapped around me. There was something about having him beside me that made me feel safe and protected. It was an unspoken thing I couldn’t quite understand. But, if I were to consider all the years we’d known each other, I’d probably find that it had been that way for quite some time. I inhaled and focused on his steady heartbeat. The mere knowledge that he existed could carry me through my toughest days. It was messed up. I was messed up. I knew that. I just didn’t know what I was supposed to do now that I’d crossed the line with him.
15
GISELLE
Someone knocked on the door, startling me from a deep sleep. My eyes sprang open, blinded by the sunlight filtering into the room. I was still twisted up with Thayer in bed. Naked.
“Giselle,” Kason said through the door.
“Fuck,” Thayer hissed.
“Bathroom,” I whispered, pushing him off the bed even though he’d already attempted to escape to it.
“Can you unlock the door?” Kason asked.
“Hold on!” I called to him.