CHAPTER 42
BREAKING MARGAUX
MARGAUX
TWO WEEKS LATER
Idecide to check his phone again, just to be sure.
I just have a feeling.
Then I see another shortcut to a girl’s Facebook profile—the one who wouldn’t stop blowing up his phone. The one who he slept with right before he met me.
What the actual fuck?
My stomach churns, and I feel the familiar sting of betrayal wash over me.
I storm down to the beach, where he’s bent over, picking shells from the sand. My heart pounds in my chest as I thrust the phone toward him. I don’t care that I’m not being calm. I’m feeling incredibly betrayed, and I want answers.
“Why the hell is Methany a shortcut on your Facebook?”
He looks up, his face flickering with guilt. “I just looked at her profile once,” he mutters, brushing off my anger. “I didn’t talk to her, or anything. I just accidentally clicked on it.”
“What do you mean, accidentally clicked on it?”
“I mean, I went to see if she messaged me on there. I didn’t want to look at her Facebook profile. Matty just told me she was in town, and I was terrified she was going to message me, and that you would see it and think I wanted her to contact me. And I don’t. I can’t stand her. I will happily never talk to her again. So I tried to keep it from you in case she had messaged. But she hadn’t. Not even a loser like her wants to message me anymore. It’s a bit sad in a way. Nobody misses me. Nobody wonders where I’ve gone.”
“Okay,” I say slowly. “So you tried to protect me by lying to me? You promised me you wouldn’t lie about her again. But now you have.”
“Because I knew you’d act just like this,” he snaps, his frustration bubbling over.
“No, Timmy,” my voice is sharp, my patience unraveling. “If you had just told me the truth about it, I wouldn’t be upset. But you lied.Again. And now she’s still in your life, even though you said she wouldn’t be.”
“Fine. I’ll block her,” he mutters. “I don’t want anything to do with her anyway.”
I watch as he blocks Manthrax on Facebook and Instagram.
But deep down, I know it’s meaningless.
There are other ways for him to stay in touch with Trashleigh if he really wants to.
My mind keeps ruminating over the same things.
I can’t get over him having Britney Despair’s Facebook profile showing up as a shortcut on his phone.
Not that I think he’d know how to set up a shortcut. It clearly wasn’t intentional.
I check my own phone to see how it works, and do a bit of googling to help make it make sense. The contacts in my shortcuts are random people, but they’re people I’ve interacted with recently, so they’re who I would expect to show up..
I guess the interaction could be that he looked at Ketamine Kardashian’s page like he said, and he just doesn’t have many friends and doesn’t use it a lot. So the magnitude of his looking at her page would be much greater than for someone like me, who visits many pages a day to interact with friends all over the world.
If you have only one friend, like it’s beginning to seem is his situation, they’re going to be your shortcut if you’ve had any interaction with their page at all.
But I can’t stop thinking about all the possible explanations, and I find myself googling all the answers to this mystery. There’s a ton of information online, and a lot of people asking similar questions in relation to their significant others.
I feel a bit crazy, looking all this stuff up. I never had to do this with my last partner, because I trusted him implicitly. I haven’t had to do it with any partners, actually.
Yet Timmy keeps doing shit that makes me question him.