Noah is dangerous in more ways than one, and if I’m not careful, he might destroy me and my aspirations for a long and enjoyable rugby career.
But some traitorous part of me wants to play with fire. Wants to give in to this twisted attraction and see where it leads, consequences be damned.
I’m so screwed.
Chapter 25
Noah
Themutedrumbleoftraffic drifts up through the open window as I pace the confines of my sparsely furnished room. Functional, pragmatic—that’s how I’ve always been. But now these blank walls feel almost oppressive, like they’re closing in all around me.
I sink onto the edge of the bed, my hands clasped, my mind racing over the evening’s events.
I truly intended to start off slowly and get to know Dylan on a friendship level. It was complete coincidence that I thought her cat was trapped in her room and opened the door to make sure he was okay… and there she was, lying there all sexy and flushed.
If the other guys knew I’d just fingered her to orgasm, there would be a consensus that I won our little wager.
But the victory leaves a bitter aftertaste. It’s not why I made my way into her room and finger fucked her. I didn’t do that because of a bet. I did that because she looked so gorgeous lying there, her eyes hazy with desire. But that would be hard to explain.
And if she ever finds out...it won’t just be her trust I’ve betrayed.
It’ll be her whole perception of me, of us.
“I won, but at what cost?” The words slip out in a tortured whisper.
It was just a harmless bet, or so I told myself. But now? Now there are lines blurred, boundaries pushed too far.
My pulse quickens as I picture her face. That infectious laughter, her defiant spirit. She’s like a fucking magnet and I’m a tiny piece of shrapnel.
It started as physical attraction, sure. But now? Now it’s more. She stirs things in me I thought long buried. Makes me feel...alive.
I sink back on the bed, staring at the ceiling.
Why did I go along with Jayden’s idea for that stupid bet, anyway? I know why. It wasn’t about winning.
It was about her. About Dylan. An excuse to get closer to her. I’d do it again in a heartbeat, just to be near her.
And that’s the problem. I’ve crossed a line.
I pace the room, glancing at the trophies lining the shelves. Symbols of achievement, of my relentless competitive drive. But now they seem to mock me, shining reminders of the very trait that’s brought me to this point.
My eyes land on a photo from the leadership course, Dylan’s face alight with laughter. Her spirit is magnetic, drawing me in. There’s an undeniable connection between us that goes beyond the superficial.
I sink into the desk chair, my head in my hands. “What have I done?” The question echoes through my mind.
In pursuing a reckless bet, I’ve jeopardized so much more. The possibility of what we could become.
My pulse races as I picture her again. I joined this team to prove myself, but with Dylan, I don’t need trophies or accolades. I want to know the real her. To peel back the layers and connect on a deeper level.
I rise and move to the window, looking out at the city lights. The glimmering landscape once filled me with purpose and drive. But now it all seems hollow. Meaningless without someone to share it with.
There’s not a shortage of women who would drop what they’re doing to be with me, but I don’t just want anybody just to say I have someone. Just to avoid being lonely.
My shoulders slump as realization settles over me. This isn’t just attraction or infatuation. It’s more. “I think I’m falling for her,” I whisper into the night. The admission fills me with equal parts exhilaration and dread. The wager was dumb, but I know now there are some compromises I’d be willing to make for Dylan.
I only hope I haven’t shattered everything beyond repair.
I run a hand through my hair and let out a frustrated sigh. “I never meant for it to get this far,” I mutter. But even as I say it, I know it’s a lie.