“Then you and I will raise the child unless you decide to terminate,” he says.
“Have you done this before with exes?” I ask.
“Yes, and I know you’ll ask so I’ll tell you. Her name is Megan. She and I split more than a year ago and simply put… We just didn’t mesh well. We always argued,” he says. “What else?”
“When?”
“Tonight,” he says, trying to dampen his smile. ”They’d go get your belongings tomorrow.”
“Why me?” I ask.
“I could sit here and name all the ways I think you’re amazing, but we would be here a while. To sum it up though… You’re gorgeous and kind-hearted,” he says.
“Okay,” I say before I can talk myself out of it. “I need names.”
“Well, you know Finn and Alex. Finn is my second in command so, in order from him to Alex is Max, Ryan, Luke, Jake, Nate, and Eli.” Cole points to each man individually and they all look like they’re about to pounce on me.
“I hope you know I’m going to hyperventilate at some point,” I laugh nervously.
“We can handle it,” Finn says as he sits next to me. My breath catches in my throat when Finn places his hand on my thigh. “But she hasn’t eaten today so she needs to be fed first.”
“Let’s eat dinner and we can just go from there,” Cole says. “But I need to hear the consent.”
“I don’t know how to word that,” I say honestly.
“Let’s start with this. Do you want to be in a relationship with me?”
“Yes,” I say honestly.
“Okay, are you willing to explore me sharing you with them so long as your boundaries are respected?” he asks.
“Yes.”
“What are your hard limits?” he asks.
“No permanent marks or hits to the face. No bodily fluids other than come. Nothing intense like fisting. I will draw better lines as I learn what I don’t like.
“Then just use yellow if we approach a line,” he says. I simply nod because I can’t speak. Finn has slid his hand up my thigh and is gripping me at the bend of my hip.
“Let the girl breathe, Finn. Damn,” Max laughs. Finn smirks at me before releasing his grip, letting me relax.
“Thoughts on taking more than one of us at a time,” Finn asks in a soft tone that sends a shiver up my spine.
“Uhm… I… that’s fine,” I say. I am far past the point of nervousness, and I can’t stop fidgeting.
“Riley,” Cole says with amusement in his voice.
“I’m okay I just… I’ve never…” I start to say but he puts his hand up to stop me.
“We won’t hurt you,” he says softly. “You are leading this and despite Finn looking like he’s ready to pounce on you, he will be good and follow your lead. Everyone will.”
“So how does this work exactly? The sharing,” I ask.
“They have free use of you unless you say your safe word,” he says. “You are mine though, no matter how many times Finn corners you.”
“So, here’s the thing, Cole,” I say. “I have attachment issues. If I am just free to use, it’s going to fuck with my head.”
“As long as you are in my bed at night, I won’t be upset if you end up developing feelings for anyone,” he says as he takes my hands into his.