Eventually, the sounds become nothing but background noise.I stop trying to figure out what I’m listening to.Instead, I run through the events of the evening over and over in my head.So much information.I feel overloaded.
My world has been flipped upside down several times in the past few months.It looks nothing like I expected it would when I came to college.I’ve been sucked into a tornado.It’s spinning and spinning and won’t let me go.I’m dizzy and confused and don’t know up from down.Other objects keep slamming into me, jarring me, sending me careening, but still I spin.
Oddly, as I sit here, I feel like the cyclone is slowing down.Maybe it will finally settle and let me find a new normal.But how long will that take?There are so many things I have to face first.
Silver.
He’s so mad.If he knows Rook as well as I suspect he does, he’s furious.He wouldn’t want this life for me.He didn’t imagine a world in which I would be a random victim of their freshman prank.What were the chances?
But I was, and now I’m here.If I were a different person, I suspect my life would have been ruined.Some people would have nightmares forever from that incident in the pantry.It’s a cruel practice.Why the fuck do my brother and his friends do this?
By chance, instead of spending my life looking over my shoulder and crying in a counselor’s office, I’ve oddly embraced the actions of my assaulter-turned-stalker.Some warped part of me found the event titillating.Invigorating.
I’m alive.
Rook makes me feel alive.He makes mefeel.
Daddy.
He wants me to call him Daddy, and that’s okay.It’s more than okay.It will take me a long time to think of him by any other name since I didn’t even know his identity before tonight.
There are so many unknowns.He thinks I’m going to move into this house, live permanently under his thumb.It’s hard to imagine, but at the same time, it’s exactly what I want.What I need.
I can’t know exactly where Daddy is right now, but I feel like he’s sitting right outside the cage, watching me.His gaze burns into my pussy and tits.It’s making my nipples stand at attention and wetness leak from my cunt.My clit is swollen.The air is tormenting it, telling me that the hood is retracted.
I crave his touch.He’s denied me for weeks, only giving me an hour or so of his time sporadically in the dark.I wonder if he will continue to deny me or if he will hold me.
Twice now, he has held me in his arms.He cradled me while I was sitting in that tiny fort, and then he wrapped his arms around me while I took in my surroundings in this new environment.
I’m so tired.The stress has worn me down.The anxiety I’ve felt all evening has shredded me.I need sleep.Will he let me rest?
It’s possible he has more plans to torment me tonight.He might spank me or use something to punish my bottom, inside or out.The thought scares me for long minutes, but then I begin to center myself.It doesn’t matter what his next move is.It’s not up to me.I have one job—obedience.It’s what he demands.It’s what I crave.
Giving Daddy full control over me calms my soul.He’s been grooming me to accept this lifestyle.Testing me.Feeling me out.And he’s gotten his wish.
I’m his.I want nothing but to be his submissive.I want to do his bidding.I live to please him.His praise fuels me.Now that I can see his face, his approving smiles will be all I need to get through every day.A furrowed brow of displeasure will be enough to remind me not to stray from his commands.
I’m startled by the snick of the gate opening.Daddy pulls the blindfold off my head.“Such a good girl.”He holds out a hand.
I set mine in his and look into his eyes.For long seconds, I’m overcome by the sensation that this is a defining moment for both of us.I let my Daddy put me in a dog kennel without complaint.
“I need to hold you now, princess.Climb out.”
I scramble out quickly, elated by his words.
He lifts me into his arms and cradles me against him for several minutes before finally carrying me across the room.We enter an attached bathroom.
I shouldn’t be surprised when he sets me on the toilet, but nearly everything Daddy adds to our relationship stuns me.When will I learn to expect the unexpected?
“Pee, pretty girl.”He holds my hips, squatting in front of me.He’s not going to move.
I don’t care.He’s seen every inch of me.His fingers have been inside my bottom.If he wants to watch me pee, so be it.It only takes me a few moments to release my bladder.
His smile lights up my insides.This is what I will live for.That smile.It changes everything now that I can see his pride.
He wipes me, helps me stand, and guides me to the sink.He surrounds me from behind as he washes our combined hands.Grabbing two toothbrushes from the holder, he puts paste on them and hands me one.
I watch him in the mirror while we both brush as though we’ve done this a million times.It’s so domestic.The truth is, we will do this together a million times in the future.My heart settles further.