I figured.I sag in his embrace.I want to be mad at him.Madder.He’s making it hard to feel the fury I was experiencing earlier because he’s so calm, and he’s holding me.He hasn’t ever held me quite like this.
He’s letting me work through my thoughts.I can see it in his eyes.They are so gentle and kind.Piercing.I could stare into their deep brown depths forever.I might now that I can see them.
“How angry is my brother?”
“Steaming angry.”He winces and rubs his jaw.“I took a hard punch to the chin and the nose.”
“Did you hit him back?”
“Fuck no.I deserved it.He’s my brother, and I fucking destroyed him.”
“You knew each other in the boys’ home…”
“Yes.”
He’s not going to give me any details.I’m going to have to pull them out of him.The truth is, I’ve suspected that place was not okay.My brother has glossed over those years every time we’ve spoken.All I know is that he and four of his friends shared a dorm room in that home, and the way he tells it, the five of them survived.
“It was awful there.”
“Yes, princess.We don’t speak of it.”
“That’s why you five are so close.Like brothers.”
“Yes.”
I look down at where I’m wringing my hands against my thighs.“What happens now?”It feels strange asking him.I’m my own person.I was so fucking angry an hour ago that I thought I would tell him to fuck himself and leave me alone.I thought I was finally strong enough to end this.
Our relationship is unhealthy.It’s fucked up beyond recognition.It’s borderline dangerous.
And yet, the flames in my head have died down.I’m not sure what to think.I suppose now that everything is out in the open, he’ll move on.It was all a game for him.He was using me for his fucked-up prank.
Tomorrow, I’ll wake up alone in my house and try to reclaim my life.I’ll have to build some sort of relationship with my roommates.Make friends.I won’t be the same girl.I’ll never beheragain.I know things about myself that I had no clue about before I met him.
Rook.
Daddy.
Is he?Is he my Daddy?Was it all a giant game?
He strokes my cheek.“Look at me, princess.”
He’s still calling me that.I like it when he does.It makes me feel special.I’m glad he ignored my earlier insistence to stop it.I lift my gaze.
“You’re mine, Briana.”His voice is so firm, determined.There is no wavering in his tone.
My breath hitches.Is he serious right now?
“Mine, princess.You know that.You can be mad at me.I’m sure you have a million thoughts running through your head.But whatever you’re thinking or questioning changes nothing.You’re my girl.I won’t give you up for any reason or any person.I won’t even give you up if you ask me to.”
My eyes widen.He’s serious.Why would I ever doubt this man?
“I understand why you ran off.I know you were pissed and confused.But I won’t let your misbehavior this evening go unpunished.I told you to sit in your chair, and you defied me.You know better than to be outside at night by yourself.You put yourself in danger by running from me.I will firmly discipline you for your disobedience.”
My heart races.At the same time, my pussy creams.I’m more aware of the butterfly.It’s still pressing firmly against my clit.
I’m stunned.He still wants me?“Are you going to keep coming to my house at night then?”
He shakes his head, making my heart drop.“No, Briana.You’re moving in with me.Now.Tonight.You will never ever sleep in another house, away from me, again.”