Doesn’t matter though, my body is buzzing with awareness. With anticipation.
Eli being my stalker doesn’t remove the allure, if anything it adds to it. I was attracted to him from that first meeting. That attraction only grew the more I learnt about his story—if it’s even true. It shouldn’t have. But something about him has my interest piqued. I see something in him. Something broken that I want to fix.
I’ve always been like this.
That’s how I let Gianna destroy me.
Perhaps it was cowardly of me to leave and not try to get her help.
But I was scared.
I packed up what I could, gave Graham to my parents, then ran.
That’s how I ended up here.
Sure, she could follow me. But London is a big city. Not like the sleepy town I grew up in, in the centre of the country. I felt safe enough.
And now?
Now I’ve been (willingly?) kidnapped by my patient who is a self-proclaimed stalker. A man who once sent me a finger as a present.
But then—
He also bought me books and stocked my cupboards for me. He got Graham back.Made me come so hard I saw stars.Can’t forget that part.
It’s not like I’ve never had an orgasm, and he’s not the first person to make me come—though he may be the first man. But I’ve never had one quite that intense. Maybe it was the lingering fear? The hand around my throat? I don’t know.
But the memory of it runs rampant through my mind as I sit here, close enough to Eli that if I were to just shift a little closer…
Stop it.
The film continues in the background.
The whole time, I’m focused on something else.
18
So Domestic
Eli's Search History: can you be jealous of yourself?
Eli
This.
Thisis perfect.
Just me and my angel. And Graham, stretched out contentedly on the other sofa.
So domestic. Just sitting here, watching a film side by side.
The only thing that would make it better is if we were naked—my cock buried in her pussy. Or her ass. Or her mouth.
Fuck.
I’m so hard I have to subtly adjust myself.
Emily falls asleep before the credits roll, her head lolling until it lands on my shoulder. Even through my shirt, her warmth sinks into my skin and sets it buzzing.