Lifeless.
She does this often. Her lips are quiet, but I know her mind is loud.
She is picking herself apart the way the papers do. Wondering if she is beautiful, or if it is all an illusion. The overnight success with mediocre talent.
Some of the things they say about her are true.
She is beautiful. With pure, pale skin and ice blue eyes. Long raven hair that kisses the curve of her lower back. She is the most delicate thing I have ever seen, and she sings like an angel.
Mediocre, she could never be.
So clean and innocent and tender. The thoughts I have of her are so dark. The fixation blooms inside of me every time I watch her this way. She is a witch, and she has me under her spell.
This is not the way it should be.
She should be in my possession already. Every day that I wait, I risk losing my chance. I risk losing her to a force outside of my control.
An enemy of her father.
Anyone that ever knew Ray is being eliminated. One by one, I have watched them disappear in a series of car crashes and freak accidents. It’s only a matter of time before they come for Bella too.
I need to move soon. Before time and circumstance have the pleasure of taking what can only be mine.
The light inside of her will be snuffed out, with certainty. But only by my hands. Mine alone.
And yet, something holds me back.
Something makes me question everything I have planned so meticulously. When I watch her this way, I have doubts. I need only to draw on my memories to vanquish those doubts.
Visions of torture fill my thoughts and my heart. The rage consumes everything good and leaves only bitterness in its wake.
That bitterness coats my tongue when I watch Bella crawl into her bed and reach for a book on the nightstand. So soft and carefree.
She has never known hardship. She has never known hate.
But she will.
Crossing her delicate ankles, she pulls her knees to her chest and tries to read. It doesn’t last.
She is anxious. Fidgety. Distracted. And beneath her thin blue tee shirt, her nipples are hard. She discards her book and pulls the bed sheet up over her body. Frustration mounts when her hand slides down into her panties, into a place that I can’t see.
She closes her eyes and breathes softly while she touches herself. My bloody fist chokes my cock while I watch. I punish myself for wanting her this way. For the thirst that breeds inside of me every time I see her pretty face.
She touches herself uncertainly, never quite satisfied. I imagine tasting her, and then I hate myself for it. I imagine her bound beneath me, immobile and under my control. Squirming, crying. Hating me and wanting me.
I want to hurt her. I want to mark her. I want to witness her blood contaminated with the blackness of mine.
Her phone rings, and it is Luke. She doesn’t answer it.
Contempt surges inside of me, equal only to my viciousness. I want to rip his beating heart from his chest and force him to choke on it.
Isabella moans, soft and weak, and then releases herself with the tiniest of tremors in her body. Her eyes flicker open, and I zoom in on them.
I imagine my come dripping down her face and her throat. Marking her. Claiming her. Smearing my seed all over her body, mixing with the blood from my fingers.
The release is violent. My ears ring, and my lungs cease to function.
I am bloody and spent. But I wait until she is tucked into bed and her breath grows still before I move on to my next obsession.