be anywhere. And he will still be here. Teaching. And allowing the darkness of his life to consume
him.
It causes a deep and unending ache to spring up inside of me. Knowing how little time we truly
have left.
I turn to him and kiss him. And the time for guidance is done. That isn’t what I need from him right
now. And I tell him so as I straddle him and kiss his throat.
“Mr. Vaughn?”
“Yes, Chloe?” he murmurs against me.
“I’d like you to fuck me again.”
Chapter Twelve
Keller
When I pull up the calendar on my phone, I am surprised to see that there is only a month left until
Christmas. Until the conclusion of the semester and the beginning of the end.
Chloe’s final show. The one that I know will change her life irrevocably. Where I hope she will
realize her true calling even if it’s the most difficult thing for me to accept.
I won’t hold her back. I will help her in any way I can.
But sometimes, I still question if the best way I can help her is to disappear completely from her
life. She is bigger than this campus. Larger than the pointes she wears every day. She was born to
shine.
And I am holding her back. Like everything else in her life. Another chain.
And yet it feels like freedom to me.
A freedom I have not tasted in so long. She makes me want things I am no longer supposed to have.
She makes me question every decision I have made over the last six years.
The days with her go by too fast.
Too loud.
We are chaos, together.
There is no time to think when all we do is feel.
Tonight is the yoga sequence. The thing I have dreaded most since she asked me. The things she
will make me feel tonight are different. Less like freedom and more like darkness.
I resent her for it. Asking this of me.