But before the doctor's office, we head to the office. We ride the elevator up together, his hand resting on the small of my back the way it always does now, like the space between my hips was designed for his palm. When the doors open on the Ember House floor, I press the hold button and turn to face him.
"I'll meet you upstairs in a little while. I need to see Katriana."
"Don't be long." He cups my jaw and brushes his lips against mine, a kiss that's soft and unhurried and entirely too distracting for a Tuesday morning. "I'll miss you."
"It's one floor away, Luca."
"Too far." His smile carries that devastating warmth he saves for when no one else is watching.
I step off the elevator and into the warm embrace of old books and fresh ink and jasmine tea, shaking my head at the man whose charm still catches me off guard even when I'm braced for it.
Katriana greets me with a warmth that keeps catching me off guard. She's in her element here, surrounded by manuscripts and the creative chaos of a publishing house finding its legs, her engagement ring catching the light as she hands me a cup of herbal tea and guides me toward a pair of armchairs tucked into an alcove of bookshelves. The kind of cozy nook designed for disappearing into stories.
"How are you settling in?" She tucks her legs beneath her and watches me with that quiet perception I'm learning to expect from Syndicate women.
"The mansion has more rooms than I can count and the library is going to be a problem for my productivity." I settle into the chairand cradle the warm cup against my palms. "But the floors creak like they're judging my midnight snack choices, so there's that."
Persia arrives in a swirl of violet hair and red lipstick, baby Sofia balanced on one hip. The little girl reaches for me with chubby fingers, and the trust in that gesture cracks open a tender place in my chest. I take her, settling the warm weight against my side, breathing in that pure baby scent of powder and milk.
"She likes you." Persia drops into the third chair. "Sofia is an excellent judge of character. She screamed bloody murder when Massimo held her last week."
"To be fair," Katriana adds, "Massimo does look like he could bench-press a car and eat it for dessert."
The laughter comes easily. These women make belonging feel possible, like sisterhood is something you build rather than something you're born into.
Persia leans forward, her aqua blue eyes sharp beneath the playful surface. "How are you really, Ilona? Not the polished answer. The real one."
The real one. I look down at Sofia, whose tiny hand wraps around my finger with surprising strength.
"Terrified." The word scrapes out before I can polish it. "Happy. Confused. All of it at the same time."
"Sounds about right." Katriana nods with the certainty of a woman who's lived the same contradictions. "Loving a dangerous man is not a straightforward experience. Some days you want to kill them. Other days you want to climb them like a tree. Usually both in the same hour."
"The trick," Persia adds, her voice dropping into something intimate and serious, "is knowing the difference between a man who is dangerous and a man who is dangerous to you. Our husbands are the first kind. They will burn the world for us but never raise a hand against us. That's the line."
"And if the line blurs?"
"Then you have five other women and their terrifying husbands ready to burn the world on your behalf. But that’s not them." Persia's smile carries the weight of personal experience. "We protect our own, Ilona. You're one of us now. That's not just words."
Sofia gurgles and smacks my cheek with a wet palm, and the burst of laughter that follows loosens the knot in my chest by another fraction.
By the time I ride the elevator up to Luca's floor, the October afternoon has turned cold and sharp beyond the windows, the kind of autumn air that will bite through fabric the moment we step outside. Luca meets me with his jacket already on, keys in hand, and his palm finds the small of my back as we cross the lobby and head for the car. The drive to the medical building is short, and the silence between us hums with a nervous energy that has nothing to do with the city traffic crawling past. He guides me through the lobby and into an elevator that smells like antiseptic and anxiety, the fluorescent lights humming with a sterile energy that stands in stark contrast to the warmth I just left behind at Ember House.
Luca settles beside me in the examination room in a leather chair that's too small for his frame, his elbows braced on his knees, his leg bouncing with a restless energy I've never seen from him. Long dark hair pulled back, jaw tight, gold cufflinksglinting as his fingers lace and unlace in his lap. He looks like a man waiting for a verdict rather than a checkup.
"You're fidgeting." I reach over and rest my hand on his bouncing knee.
"I don't fidget."
"Your knee says otherwise."
He traps my hand beneath his and stills, but the tension in his shoulders doesn't ease. The viper on his right hand flexes as his fingers tighten around mine, ruby eyes glinting under the harsh lights.
The technician enters, a kind-faced woman with steady hands who squeezes gel onto my stomach the second she gets me into the chair. The cold makes me gasp, and she presses the wand against my skin with practiced gentleness.
Static fills the screen. Gray and white shapes shifting like clouds. I hold my breath and grip Luca's hand hard enough to crush bone.
Then the room fills with sound.