I try not to gag at that thought. Gross.
“Come on, everyone,” Hustler says, pecking Audrina on the lips as she approaches and then helps her up the steps. “Hurry, before we get a ticket.”
I doubt very much that would happen because the club owns this place, but he’s probably just trying to get everyone home quickly and safe.
“Thanks for driving us,” I say to Hustler as he gives me a chin lift.
“You’re welcome, darlin’, mind your step there.” Always a gentleman.
“How did you get roped into this job?” Payden asks behind me.
He chuckles. “I volunteered. Believe it or not, no one was fighting to take the job from me.”
“Funny that,” Payden laughs. “I’m sure you’ve got a million better things to be doing, but thanks, Hustler.”
He tips his head and helps Star and Halo, who are behind us.
I’m excited to be heading back, and I know the only reason for that. I check my phone, sure enough, there’s five texts from Sawyer.
Sawyer
Gonna be a little late, something came up
Sawyer
How is your night going?
Sawyer
I can’t wait to see you. It’s been a long day
Sawyer
I also can’t wait to see your dress
Sawyer
Gonna be hard seeing you at the clubhouse and not being able to touch you
I stare at that last message and my heart flutters.
Gonna be hard seeing you at the clubhouse and not being able to touch you?
Is he for real?
A flutter in my lower belly has me squeezing my legs together. The way Sawyer had his hands on me is enough, no matter what he says. Of course, I’d love to actually have him inside me, but if that can’t happen right now, or ever, he’s still enough. I had the most powerful orgasm of my life, and that was only with rubbing and his fingers. I can’t even imagine what he can do with his tongue, much less anything else.
I know without a doubt that waiting has been the best thing I could do for myself. Having a hiatus after a traumatic experience, and a violent ex is the smartest thing I did. No amount of therapy will ever make me forget, but I learned to process it and now it can no longer hold me hostage. The scars will remain, but with Sawyer, I’m not afraid. I trust him. I know he’d never hurt me. He wants what’s best for me, and I want the same for him.
A tight feeling has me sitting upright in my chest.What is that?A heart murmur, or something?
I’ve never had that feeling before. It’s happened a couple of times, always when I’m thinking about Sawyer. Could I… could I be developing real feelings for him? Wouldn’t that be stupid?
We’re not a thing. Okay, wearea thing, but here I go, getting all heavy. And of course I have feelings for him, duh, I’ve told him I love him, but this is something more. Something raw.
Am I in love with him?
I swallow hard, placing a hand over my heart. That’s it, isn’t it? Somewhere along the line, I read too much into it. I told myself I’d never get swept up in a guy ever again, but that just isn’t true.