“Speaking of which, I forgot to tell you Bobby’s in jail.”
“Holy shit!”
“Yep.”
“Though, when you think about it, is it really that surprising?”
“I know,” I sigh. “But the other night when Sawyer came to get me, I could’ve sworn I saw him in the bar. Which just goes to show you I am, in fact, fucking crazy.”
She pulls me into a one armed hug. “No, you’re not. You suffered trauma, babe, that isn’t something you ever really get over.”
“I know, but seeing my ex in a bar when he’s locked up thousands of miles away.” I shake my head.
Payden frowns. “Speaking of which, please tell me you won’t do that again. Those girls aren’t your friends, and you’re lucky your drink didn’t get spiked or something.”
“Tell me about it,” I sigh. “I had a big lecture from Sawyer. It’s the story of my life, the one time I was spontaneous.”
“Be spontaneous at the clubhouse, at least you’ll be safe.”
“Yeah, I really wanna hang out where my cousins practically live,” I huff. “Well, aside from Logan, but I think Cash may finally have convinced him to join the MC. I heard the brothers talking about it in the break room”
Payden piques a brow. “Oh?”
A slow smile spreads across my face. “So, are you going to admit you have a little crush?”
Payden laughs. “Word to the wise? This ain’t a crush, honey. I’m not ashamed to say that I wouldn’t mind parking my shoes under his bed any day of the week, so to speak.” She fans herself and I laugh, too.
“Ew.”
“Not from where I’m standing.” She ponders for a second. “So, is Logan seeing anyone?”
“Not that I know of, but you know how secretive he is. If you ask me, he’s just grumpy. On the flip side, if he comes to the clubhouse then you might actually get to live out that fantasy.”
She claps her hands together. “Something to live for.”
I snort. “I thought all you posh lawyer types only like other posh lawyer types in suits and stuff?”
She wrinkles her nose. “I don’t like men in suits, to be honest. All day, I work around old cronies who do not interest me one iota. I like a man who is rugged and a little rough around the edges. Maybe a little dirty, but only in the bedroom.”
”Oh god, make it stop,” I whine. “Promise me if you do bag Loges, do me a favor and confess to Luna, okay? Because I really don’t wanna know.”
“Deal.Ifit ever happens.”
“Well, you should be brave and ask him out. Why wait for him to make the moves?”
“You have a point, because Logan isnevergonna make the moves.”
“Yes, because he doesn’t even know any of this,” I say. “You don’t make it easy on yourself. How’s a guy meant to know when you work from dusk till dawn?”
“That’s the story of my life. I only have myself to blame,” she sighs.
“I’ll get out the violins.” I mimic violin playing and she bumps me again.
Sobering, she adds quietly. “I’m glad you’re happy. You deserve it. Don’t worry about what anyone says or thinks, it’s what you want that matters.”
I blink, then give her a warm smile. Sharing my feelings is never easy, but it’s less complicated with my roommate. Payden is a good friend. There’s no agenda, and she looks out for me, plus it’s a pleasant change to the company I’ve been keeping. “Thanks. So you do you. Which is why I say you should just go for it.”
She turns back to the rack. “I guess I’m gonna need a killer outfit to seal the deal then, right?”