"What did you do?"
"I cried for three days." A small, sad smile. "Then I decided that no matter what happened with Jack, I would love that baby. I would protect her. I would give her everything I had."
"And Jack?"
The smile fades.
"Jack was Jack. But Lily..." Her voice softens. "Lily is the best thing that ever happened to me. Whatever else went wrong, I got her. And that makes everything worth it."
I look down at the test in my hand.
A baby.
My baby.
Bruno's baby.
"What if he doesn't want it?"
The question comes out small. Scared.
Kristen doesn't answer right away.
"Bruno is..." She chooses her words carefully. "Complicated. Damaged. Difficult."
"I know."
"But I've seen the way he looks at you, Antonella. I've seen the way he is when you're in the room. He's different with you. Softer. More human."
"That doesn't mean he wants a baby."
"No. It doesn't." She reaches over and squeezes my hand. "But you won't know until you tell him."
Tell him.
The thought makes my stomach lurch.
Or maybe that's the morning sickness.
"I need to think," I say. "I need to figure out what I want before I talk to him."
"What do you want?"
I close my eyes.
What do I want?
I want Bruno to hold me and tell me everything will be okay.
I want him to be happy about this.
I want to see his face light up the way it does when Lily climbs into his lap.
I want to build a family with him.
I want?—
I want so many things I'm afraid to name.