“Let go, Lil. Give it to me. Give it all to me.”
I’m not just talking about her orgasm. I’m talking about everything. Give me her, her future, her love, her everything.
She comes, so hard she’s practically convulsing in my arms and the way my dick is in a vice inside her I can’t hold back any longer. My own release barrels through me. I push in as deep as possible, filling her completely.
Our skin sticks together while we catch our breath; I kiss her softly as we come down.
“Worth the wait?” she asks smugly.
I chuckle against her lips. “I’d do it all again if I had to.”
CHAPTER 31
Lily
We settledunder the thick blankets; I’m tucked completely against Parker’s side tracing my fingers along his chest. It’s crazy how muscular he’s gotten. He was always fit, but in that lanky way. Especially when he had his growth spurt and shot up like six inches in a year.
“Did you spend all the time at the gym when everyone thought you were screwing the entire town?” I joke as my fingers run over the indent of his abs once again.
His chest bounces with laughter. “I really don’t know why everyone talked about what they thought I was doing in my free time.”
“Probably because you’re a show off, and made it look like you were whoring around.”
He shrugs. “Didn’t feel it was necessary to correct anyone.”
My fingers continue to dance around while we just lay in a comfortable silence. I’ve struggled with silence most of my life,but not with Parker. I don’t feel like I need to say anything or think about what I should say. Or try to control my rogue mouth.
This time the words that fly out are more vulnerable than I usually am. “I know I can be a lot.”
Parker shifts, adjusting so he can look at my face, and I scrunch my nose already regretting that I opened this door of thoughts. “Why thefuckdo you think that?”
I shrug. “I just know I’m a lot to handle and deal with.”
He shakes his head adamantly. “Who told you that? I’ll kill them, because you’re notat all.”
I roll my eyes. “Just because you like me doesn’t make it untrue. I am, I know that.”
His throat bobs with a swallow before he continues. “That’s not true. You’re not a lot. Anyone who thinks that and who would have the audacity to say it just can’t handle how perfect you are. You’re everything I want and could ever want.”
I roll my lips together, searching his eyes for a lie, but it’s clear he’s deadly serious. That’s why I do what I do best and turn to humor. “Of course, you’re going to say that after you just got laid.”
He leans closer. “I’d still say that even if you made me wait another seven years for you. Even if you made me wait forever, that wouldn’t change.”
How am I even supposed to respond to that? There are no words for me to say. I don’t even try, instead, pulling him down to kiss me again, the electricity from his lips on mine is enough tosoothe every insecurity I have about who I am. My worries and fears are erased with his mouth on mine.
I fucking love him.
I break the kiss with the thought because I can’t tell him. Not yet. There’s a loose end I have to tie up before I can take that final step with Parker. I’m all in with him, but I don’t need anything screwing up my happiness either.
“I have to go back to San Francisco,” I say against his mouth.
“What?” He rears back. “You said you were staying. What do you mean?”
I press my hands to his chest to ground him. “No, not like that. I have to get the rest of my stuff.”
“I’ll get you new stuff.”
“You’re not doing that.”