After we’re full of Italian food, we get back in my truck and my nerves kick into high gear. I keep her pressed against me while I drive us to our spot. She rests her head on my shoulder and is tracing her delicate fingers along the skin of my hand. I don’t know if she’s tracing anything specific or just following the lines in my palms. She moves her fingers between mine, sliding them through mine, then back out. She won’t stop moving and I think she may be nervous too. I’m not sure why. I don’t even know why I’m nervous. Other than this is such a long time coming.
I park, keeping the headlights on because the late summer sun is setting and I want her face lit up so I can see every small piece of her reaction.
She follows me out of the driver’s side door, and I refuse to letgo of her hand for even a second. I lead her to the front of my truck, my heart is racing and my throat is dry. I know I have nothing to worry about, but the reminder of the last time I had this ring in my pocket for her has the nerves kicking in.
I do everything I can to push them away. I hold her hand, and then place the other on the side of her neck, rubbing my thumb along her jaw lightly.
“Lil,” I start softly. She’s looking up at me; her bright blue eyes completely focused on mine as she rests her hand on my forearm. “You’re everything to me. You light up every room you walk into. You’re my first love, myonlylove. You’re the mother of my future child. I love you so much. There was a time I didn’t think I could be good enough for you, and sometimes I think that may still be true. But I promise you I’m going to make sure I’m worthy of every beautiful moment you give me for the rest of our lives. When I got hurt, the last thing I saw was you. Even in the hospital all I could think about were memories of you.”
I move to kneel in front of her, pulling the ring box out of my pocket and controlling my shaking hands. “Lily Baker, will you marry me?”
Tears are already streaming down her face, and she’s nodding, already trying to throw herself into my arms before I’m able to get the ring on her finger. I stand up, picking her up as our lips crash together.
She rests her head on my forehead and says something so perfectly Lily. “You should’ve asked before knocking me up, you know?”
I chuckle, chasing her mouth with mine for another deep kiss.
When we break apart again, I guide her back onto her feet so I can slide the ring on her finger. We both watch as the slim silver band with the oval cut diamond in the middle surrounded by several smaller diamonds on the band slides on.
“I’ve had this ring since we were eighteen,” I tell her honestly once it’s past her second knuckle.
“What?” she gasps.
Nodding, I examine how it finally looks on her, where it belongs. “I was going to propose to you that summer. I had the ring with me every single day just waiting for the perfect moment.”
Her shoulders slump. “Wow, I really am a dick for leaving.”
I shake my head. “You’re not a dick. I’ve told you I don’t regret how anything happened, and I never will.”
I pull her in for a kiss, cupping her face and she grips onto my shirt tightly, trying to bring us closer together.
“I love you,” she pants against my lips.
“I love you, Lil. Always have and always will.”
“Pleasetell me you’ll fuck me now.”
I chuckle, shaking my head. “No, I’m not going to fuck you.”
Lily pulls back, and I can see the argument ready to start, but I cut her off with my mouth on hers and she melts into me. Then I speak against her lips, “I’m going to make love to myfiancé.”
She sighs. “I guess I can accept that.”
This woman. This perfect woman.
I pick her up, her legs wrapping around my waist and I can already feel her trying to grind herself against me. She moans so easily, even more sensitive than before she was pregnant. I bring her back to the truck cab, opening the door to lay her down on the seat.
I slide my hands up her thighs, pushing her dress up to her waist, then even higher over her stomach. She still isn’t showing much, but when I put my hand on her, I swear I can feel our baby in there. She raises her arms up enough for me to push her dress up off her body completely. I unhook her bra, which she quickly removes, and I lean down to run my tongue along her skin. Swirling around her peaked nipple, circling my tongue around the hard bud before wrapping my mouth around it. I suck so hard she gasps, arching her back, trying to get closer to me.
Moving over to her other nipple, I do the same thing. She’s already gasping, moaning and squirming under me. Her hips are thrusting up, seeking my touch. It only makes me suck her nipple into my mouth harder, grazing my teeth against her skin.
“Parker,” she whines.
“Mhm?” I hum against her chest.
“You know I’m not dramatic, but if you don’t let me touch your dick in some way right now, I’m going to tackle you to the ground.”
“I love how needy you are,” I groan, moving my mouth down her stomach, kissing my way down to the waistband of her underwear.I kiss over the fabric, and she moans loudly. She knocks my hat off to yank at my hair.