Thursday
Era,
If you’re reading this… it means you found your way back. And if you’re here, then I did what I was meant to do.
You need to take your life back now. Not just for yourself but for him. Dominic needs you. The real you.
I pause for a moment.
I wish I could love him the way you do. I really tried. I tried to feel what you feel. To see him the way you see him.
The pen hesitates before continuing.
But the truth is… I can’t. Because my heart belongs to someone else.
I close my eyes for a moment.
Then write the words.
I’m in love with him.
The confession sits on the page.
Inevitable.
Unavoidable.
And sometimes I imagine a life where things were different. Where I could close my eyes and wake up somewhere else. Somewhere quiet. Somewhere he is mine… and I am his. Somewhere the world never broke us into pieces.
My hand tightens around the pen.
But this life isn’t ours. It never was. And it never will be.
I stare at the page before writing again.
So it’s time for you to come back. It’s time for you to live again. I’ll still be here.
Guarding the parts of you that the world tries to destroy.
I start to close the diary.
Then I stop.
One last truth presses against my chest.
I open the page again.
And there’s something else you need to know.
My hand trembles slightly.
Dominic didn’t do it.
I did.
The room feels colder suddenly.
The night at the restaurant. You remember that moment when Sophie stepped away.