I quickly sat up.“Apologies.I didn’t realize that I’d…” I motioned to her lying partially beneath me.At least from the waist up.Thankfully, she couldn’t see or feel the iron rod thrusting up from my groin.
“That you’d what?Buried your head between my tits and motorboated me?”She gave me another shove for good measure, then sat up and got out of my bed.
I wanted to dive across the mattress, hook her around the waist and yank her back in with me.“I was asleep,” I said, lying.
She narrowed her eyes on me.
She wasn’t buying it.I needed to change the direction of this conversation.“You didn’t have to stay with me last night, but I appreciate it.I’m sure it was an…unpleasant task.”
“I didn’t stay because I wanted to,” she said, her lovely eyes burning into me.“I did it because I need you fit and healthy for today.”
“I appreciate it all the same.”
She shrugged, then lifted her arms, stretching, and her oversized shirt drifted up, almost showing the soft delicate flesh between her thighs.“I’ve done worse than wipe puke off someone’s chin, Si, but let’s not make a habit of it, okay?”
I cleared my throat.“Of course.”
She stood there a moment longer, and I realized she was waiting for me to get out of bed.I couldn’t do that, not with what I had going on under the covers.I sat up but didn’t move.“I’ll ah…just grab a shower and be out shortly.”
Her gaze slid over me before she spun and strode out of the room.
What had I been thinking?I rubbed my hands over my face.
Idiot.
Nothing would ever happen between Ursula and me, not ever again.I had to focus on getting through this tournament and ensuring the angel team won, despite how much I loathed the pair of them.Once I was back to full power, I could deal with Nathaniel, but for now, I had to make sure he didn’t kill me or Urs and it was just them and us standing at the end.If another team beat us to the second spot on the leaderboard, there was a chance the angels could lose, and if that happened, the deal I had with Michael would be void.
I got out of bed and glanced into the main room.Ursula was sitting at the small dining table, her poisons set out in front of her.She was systematically adding a drop from each vial into a mug, something she did every day, microdosing, to keep up her tolerance to whatever nasty shit was in those bottles.She’d been consuming small amounts of poison her whole life as part of her job as Lucifer’s taster, and she took her job very seriously.For an hour afterwards, her eyes, that were a vibrant green, would gain a golden ring around the edges that almost glowed.
“Take a picture, it’ll last longer,” she said without looking up.
Shit.I quickly strode away before she did, and got an eyeful of the erection I was trying to hide, and shut myself in the bathroom.I turned the shower on to frigid and got in.My cock didn’t deflate, though, and I gritted my teeth, trying to ignore it.I hadn’t indulged in the pleasures of the flesh since I’d been with Ursula three years ago.Sex made me feel out of control, made me crave things I couldn’t have, things that weren’t meant for me, that had never been meant for me.Like Ursula.
If I had my wings returned and my banishment rescinded, I would need to return ready to be the angel I once was, and sex for any other reason than procreation was unacceptable.I had to remember that.
I would be expected to lie with Rosalind, but again, only for procreation, and allowing myself to fall deeper into the dark longing I’d allowed myself to experience with Ursula would make my life in Heaven more difficult than it needed to be.I had to douse the emotions burning inside me and return to the cool, collected male I’d once been.Fire belonged in Hell, not burning inside one of God’s warriors.
I looked down at my erect penis and hissed in a breath through my teeth.I’d gone to great pains to make it impossible to lie with another female after Ursula, to make surethatpart of myself was as unattractive and unserviceable as possible.A punishment.Though, at the time, it had been more symbolic for me than anything else, because the idea of being with another female, even Rosalind, was not something I could bear to contemplate.
The male at the piercing shop had called it Jacob’s ladder.Showing anyone how I’d purposely mutilated that part of my body as punishment for my failure to Ursula, and my betrayal to my brethren, would be humiliating, which was exactly why I’d chosen to do it.
I guessed I’d have to take the piercings out when I returned to Heaven, along with the ones through my nipples, again an attempt at disfiguring my body.I imagined Ursula looking at me like this and shuddered.
She’d be repulsed by me.Disgusted.That should be enough to soften my cock, but it remained rock hard.
Without any other choice, I gripped the base of my cock and squeezed, so tight it caused pain.I hissed and panted, but finally my erection subsided.
Trembling, I blasted myself with more cold water.
The next task would be starting soon, and I needed to force everything else from my mind.
Iwouldmake it to the final event.It was the only way to go home.
It was the only way I could get over Ursula and return to the angel I once was.
Eight
Ursula