I lift my hand for a gesture, but my fingers tremble and the motion collapses. I step forward for the clumsy stumble, but my legs wobble too much and I fall too hard. It isn't a comedic tumble; it's a collapse.
I sit in the sawdust, dizzy. I force myself upright and try the invisible suitcase gag, but my arms buckle. Not one spark rises. My heart thumps with a sickening realization: if I can’t coax Joy from them, the circus will fall.
I hear whispers from the crowd:“She looks ill.” “Is this part of the show?”
I blink hard, my vision doubling. Where are the sparks? Where is the glow? I lift my head, and that’s when I see him:Milo.
He is standing at the back of the tent, hidden behind a pole. Above his head, a gold spark pulses—weak, faint, but alive. It’s the only bright thing in the tent. I take a step toward him, and my knees give.
When I hit the ring floor, the sawdust tastes likeburnt caramel. The circus is screaming through its own sweetness,and the smell ofsun-warmed hayis now choking and thick with distress.
The only thing I hear is Milo’s voice, breaking and raw: “JOY!”
He rushes forward just as every lantern in the tent flickers out at once. A blackout. An omen. As darkness swallows the crowd’s screams, I feel one last thing: Milo’s hands catching me. Warm. Shaking. Alive.
A warmth that has already cost us everything.
Chapter 13
Wonderhouse Weakens
Darkness has weight.
It isn’t just the absence of light. It’s a hand over the mouth. A curtain pulled over a flame. A living thing that presses down from all sides. The blackout swallows Wonderhouse whole, and for a breathless moment, there is nothing—no sparks, no lantern glow, no whisper of fireflies—just the thick, suffocating dark and the wild heartbeat pounding in my ears.
Then come the screams, the shuffle of feet, and the echo of Milo’s voice, too close and too raw: “Joy. Joy, stay with me. Please?—”
I try to open my eyes, but the darkness clings to me like tar. I feel Milo’s hands—steady, careful, and terrified—supporting me. There’s a warmth in them that wasn’t there yesterday. A borrowed, fragile warmth.
Somewhere in the void, the Ringmaster’s voice detonates: “LIGHTS! SOMEONE GET THE LIGHTS UP!” But nothing responds. The circus is empty. Its hunger has deepened beyond whispering; it has begun to consume. I can feel the collapse. Where there should be Joy sparks drifting from the crowd's anxious breaths, there is nothing. Not even the faintest glow of fear.
Milo’s hollow expands around us, pulling the dark in like a tide.
“Milo… you have to step back,” I whisper weakly. “Your emptiness—it’s mixing with the circus’s hunger. You’re making it worse.”
“I don’t care,” he snaps, his grip tightening.
“ENOUGH!” The Ringmaster’s voice sharpens with a terror he can no longer hide. A single, violent white spark flares as he strikes a flint. In the flickering half-light, he looks like a man haunted, his eyes burning. “Put her down,” he commands Milo. “Now.”
Milo doesn’t move. He pulls me closer, shielding me as if he expects the circus itself to lunge. “No,” he growls. It is the first time I’ve heard anger from him. It doesn't create a spark, but it makes the hollow around him vibrate dangerously.
The Ringmaster crouches beside us, the flint spark outlining our shapes in the gloom. “The Joy she gave you destabilized the balance,” he hisses. “Her spark fed a void instead of the tent. And now the tent is retaliating.”
A cold, unnatural wind whips through the tent, tasting of dust and lost laughter. The ground vibrates. A support rope snaps above us, falling into the void.
“I’ll fix this,” Milo whispers fiercely as a new spark flickers above him. It’s not gold; it’s grey—born from the ache of hurting someone he didn't mean to.
“You can’t,” I breathe. “You can’t give Joy back.”
The Ringmaster stands, his face carved in shadow. “There is only one way to stabilize the circus tonight. She must perform again. Immediately. Before the crowd’s fear grows strong enough to form a Hollow.”
Milo’s voice sharpens. “She’ll collapse again.”
“She might,” the Ringmaster agrees softly. “But if she doesn’t try, Wonderhouse will collapse first.”
I look at Milo. I can feel the hollow left by the spark I gave him burning with a cold, hollow fire. He cups my face with trembling hands. “You can’t do this alone,” he whispers.
“I never have,” I breathe.