“Nothing bad,” Maddox said.
“In fact,” David put in, “you could think of it as a good thing that you haven’t had to suffer through your heats.”
“I guess. But what if I’m infertile? I would like to have kids someday, if I can find an alpha mate.”
“What’s this about finding an alpha mate?” Angus’s voice rang through the room, startling me. “I better not see an alpha sniffing around you.”
Alarmed at this outburst, I could only stare.
“Gramps, Ben was talking about someday having children. He’d need an alpha for that.”
Angus pointed at Maddox. “You let me worry about that!”
Angus’s words in that tone of voice was making me slick between the cheeks of my ass.Gods,how embarrassing.
“I think I’m going to go to bed now,” I said, getting up and leaving the room as quickly as I could.
In bed with my door closed, I fondled my erect cock. Omegas’ cocks were small and rarely got stiff, but I’d found that both Angus and Colt could make mine that way, usually when they went all alpha on someone like Angus just did.
He was going alpha because of you, my inner voice said.
That thought brought more tang oozing out of my ass, and I used it to slick up my cock. A half-dozen strokes, and I came—hard—in my hand.
After wiping my palm on a tissue from a box beside my bed, I lay there thinking. What would it be like to have Angus take me? Put his long, thick alpha cock inside me and thrust until it thickened and locked us together? A hot flush spread up my chest. Gods, I wanted that. Actually, I wanted two alpha cocks inside me: Angus’s and Colt’s. To my dismay, my cock perked up again and I had to rub another one out. It wasn’t my heat. If that came on, I’d be going feral and begging for it. This was plain arousal, something I wasn’t used to. And something that was embarrassing when I didn’t have an alpha to claim me. Gleesa, the beta lady who took in me, David, and Jackson for years while we were hiding from the government, used to lock me and David in a room when we went into heat. Jackson had been lucky; his physician mother had connections that provided him with heatsuppressants the entire time he lived with us, so he’d never had to feel the shame we’d gone through. I knew if she’d been able to, she would have gotten them for Jackson and me, too, but they were difficult to come by. I was lucky that Laura Turner could get me enough to last me ten months at the ranch. Since the day I ran out, I’d been holding my breath, knowing the time was coming when I would have to leave or cause havoc in the household.
I was afraid to hear what Laura would say when she examined me. Was I defective in some way? Why had I stopped having heats? If I was defective, no alpha would want me, and I’d have to hide forever.
Chapter four
Angus
Iwas not a happy alpha. I couldn’t have the relationship I wanted with Colt because we both wanted to dominate. And Ben was talking about getting an alpha.
Over my dead body.
The following day, I got Colt alone in my wing of the house.
“What is it?” he asked. “You look upset.”
“I am upset. I overheard Ben say something about wanting an alpha to give him children.”
Colt’s expression hardened from concern to anger. “What? Does he have someone in mind?”
I started to pace. “I don’t know, but it bugs me.”
“Because you want him.”
Stopping, I turned to him. “Is that why it bothers you?”
I could see Colt working the muscle in his jaw, which meant he was upset.
“Look, why don’t we both just admit we want him?” I said. “It’s exhausting to pretend we don’t. He’s the obvious answer to our dilemma.”
Now that I knew Colt felt like I did, all I could think about was being with him, but the fact that we were both alphas was going to throw a serious wrench into our love life.
As if to prove what I was thinking was wrong, Colt came at me and kissed me roughly. I didn’t mind the rough part so much, but when he backed me up and sat me down on my bed, I balked. Stopping him was the last thing I wanted, but I couldn’t help it.Fuck.
I stood up. “Sorry. I—Fuck, Colt, how the hell did you suck me yesterday? You push me down on the bed and I freak out.”