“Oh, hi. I understand he was transferred to another hospital about an hour ago.”
“What the fuck? I was told to wait here.”
I closed my eyes, rage building inside me. But why would they tell me? We weren’t related.
“I’m so sorry. If you ask at the desk they can give you the details. Maybe you could go there, and they could give you more.”
Putting my anger aside, I asked the only question that mattered to me. “Was he awake? Did he say anything?”
“I don’t know, but he was out of immediate danger. He’d lost a lot of blood.”
I remembered. I’d sat in it until they’d arrived and only remembered to change my clothes before coming here.
What should I do now? I was exhausted and hungry, but the paramedic was still talking to me.
“Sorry, I just don’t know what to do. I guess I’ll go find him. Thank you for everything you did.”
She touched my arm and smiled. “I hope you find him and he’s okay. I’m sorry I couldn’t be more help.”
I watched her leave and glared at the woman behind the desk. She could have fucking told me, and I had it in my head to o give her a piece of my mind, but what good would that do?
Harvey had gone, and now I needed to find him.
Chapter 24
Harvey
“Idon’t want to see him.” I tugged at the bandage covering the cut on my arm.
“He’s been here for the past hour. He refuses to leave.” The nurse tucked the sheet around me, her annoyance obvious.
“I don’t care.”
Except I cared. Deeply, but the moment I let him back into my life, I’d be right back where I’d been two days ago. At least here on this ward, he couldn’t wander in unannounced.
None of this was his fault. This was all on me, but how could I expect him to be there? He’d be forever wondering if I was going to do it again, and right then, I couldn’t promise him I wouldn’t.
The pills helped, deadening my soul until I couldn’t feel anything, but I knew dragging Killian into my shitshow wasn’t what he’d signed up for.
He deserved better. Better than me, anyway. He’d find someone new and make a life with them.
She eyed me with steely blue eyes. “You might have only been here two days, Harvey, but I’m sure you don’t mean that.”
I closed my eyes, intent on ignoring her and the rest of the world. Tiredness threatened to pull me under again. I’d spent more time sleeping than I had in a while, but when I slept, I didn’t think.
My dreams were just that. Dreams of a life I wouldn’t have, so why give him false hope?
“It’s time for your meds, then you can sleep. Do you really want me to tell that lovely man to go away?”
He’d never forgive me if I didn’t at least tell him how I was, but I couldn’t face him, no matter what she said.
“Tell him I’m sleeping, that I’m not up to visitors. I know this seems cruel, but please.”
She handed me the pills and a glass of water. “I’ll ask the doctor to do it. Best coming from him. Now, get some rest. The psychologist will be around later to talk to you, and then maybe you’ll change your mind.”
When I woke next, Julie sat at my bedside.
“Hey, Harvey. How are you doing?” Her smile was full of concern.