“And what about now?”
What about now? Would I want him like that? “I think we need to experiment a little and then see how it goes.”
“I’m cool with that.” He adjusted himself. “I enjoyed that, though. Wear those forever.”
“What about you?”
“I’m knackered. I got up and caught the earlier train so I’d be here sooner. Is there any coffee on?”
“No, but I can make some.” I was still reeling from his admission that he got the earlier train. That, and the thought of Killian inside me.
Now he’d mentioned it, it was all I could think about. So much so that Killian pulled me up about being distant sometime later.
“Harv. What’s up? Aren’t you happy I came home early?”
We were in our usual spot on the sofa, him lying back with me sprawled on his chest.
I sat up to look at him. “I am more than happy you’re home.”
Home. When did he call it home?
“But I can’t deny that I’m curious about, you know… anal.”
“Harv…”
“No, let me finish. I want to try it.”
“Now?”
“I mean, there’s no time like the present, but I’m guessing we’d need to practice.”
“Remember Ash?”
I nodded. How could I forget him?
“That guy didn’t need an ounce of prep. But he was a seasoned pro. You, on the other hand, have had no experience at all, so yes, we’ll need to practice. We’ll start small, then work our way up to the ‘main event’.”
“Please don’t call it that.” I put my hands over my eyes, embarrassed by his words.
“Sorry. I didn’t know what else to call it. But you know what I mean. I don’t want to plan, because that takes the fun out of everything, so let me know when you think you’re ready.”
Seeing how it was all I could think about, now sounded good, but he’d already said he was tired.
“Okay. I’ll let you know. Do we need to buy anything? Plugs or dildos?”
He laughed, but I didn’t get the feeling he was laughing at me.
“Fingers and lube will do just fine. You have lube, right?”
“Somewhere, yes.” I didn’t remember the last time I used it.
“I have some at the apartment if you don’t.”
“How long are you here for?” He had his own place in Liverpool. He’d probably want to go back there.
“As long as you’ll have me. We can take a trip into the city tomorrow if you’d like. I need to grab more clothes, anyway.”
“Deal.” I settled back to where I’d been, listening to the steady beat of his heart. It grounded me like no other sound, but the image of his fingers in my arse wouldn’t leave me.